I’m thankful I did not settle for just anyone that comes…

I’m a firm believer in meeting the right someone. That someone who would be your call, your text away 24/7, that someone who would be your dark knight, your guardian angel, your soulmate, your listening ear, your adviser, your happy pill, and your best company. I know that someone is somewhere out there for me who will eventually sweep me off my feet and make me realize that my wait is worthwhile.

YES, that’s why I have never settle for just anyone that came along in my life. Call me picky, call me choosy, call me whatever you may like, but that’s me. 😀

For those whom have known me, listening to all my date stories, you’ll know that I’m a typical Taurus, who never opens up to anyone until I’ve seen his true colors. I’m always observing and being patient, trying not to fall hard to someone whom I do not know inside out. Simply because, when I fall, I fall hard, so hard that I ended up getting hurt but I do not regret a single one, for they each taught me something new and what I’m looking for…

  • He told me I was too good to be true.. and so I did to become an even better person to make to be a “too good to be true” girl.
  • He told me I was nice but treated me like a possession without respect… and I finally learnt to be BAD by leaving him.
  • He told me I was too fit for his liking for he liked chubby/curvy girls… and I became even more motivated to POLE HARDER.

These are probably just some of the more significant dates that has probably molded me to become the girl I am today. Till as I’m typing this post, I know that I made the right choice for myself for not settling for anything less because I don’t need anyone to dictate my life, my choices nor my goals.

The inability to not accept someone’s else flaws may not be a bad point, to state that I am someone who is a perfectionist over the qualities that I want in a partner, resulting in rejecting a potentially ideal person. Ultimately, I know that when when I fall in love, accepting his shortcomings SHOULD NOT feel like settling such as accepting his reasons for his negative qualities or  giving up on my current lifestyle to accommodate to his. In fact his vices should be able to be accepted by me as a virtue, else the person would definitely be another strike-off.

I know holding out may seem like a major gamble because settling is the safest bet to give myself the security that I needed and to be showered with attention for I’m someone who might be a little afraid of being alone (or perhaps should it be the emptiness…hmm). Age is also probably one of the major concern as getting older year after another,  with everyone around suddenly becomes attached, I might panic and even start doubting myself on my attractiveness. Still, there won’t be any likelihood of me prioritizing being in a relationship over the quality of that potential someone. If I were to be dating someone who makes me uneasy about going long-term with him, then I’ll rather choose to let go of this mediocre someone, and take a riskier bet— TO GO SINGLE.

Being single has its own benefits like being able to allocate all my time to do the things I wanted without having to consider someone else in my decisions. I could be able to spend some time in the supermarket to shop for some groceries or even a day at the gym or leaving my phone untouched to watch a movie on Putlocker. I could also spend my money where I deemed appropriate like spending on pole classes, saving it for my budget travels and splurge on myself during special occasions. I even managed to put some ticks to my goals and checklists such as travelling alone to another country, working at a bar in Bikini, and most importantly, learning to be independent, strong and figured out that I was actually pretty good at planning and being road savvy. It allowed me to foster a even stronger bond with my bffs like Siru and creating new friendships with others because I always believed that friendship is worth investing my time in for they are the ones who would be willing to lend their listening ears when your families are not around.

Yes, I may not have fallen in love or settle with someone, but I fell in love with life. I fell in love with my new hobbies, learning to relive my  life again once more, learning to stand up after my grandma’s departure and even realizing my new quirks. I had the chance to figure out things out of my comfort zone and appreciating them on my own. I’m glad for this solitude as I wouldn’t be able to unlock my new achievements and goals if I had settled for just anyone that came along. 😀

 

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Never settle for anything less than what you deserve, it’s not pride but self respect.

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I’m a cabin crew wannabe

Ever since I was in secondary school, and watched this movie called “View From The Top” which talked about this girl called Donna who came from a small town  where no one believes that she could do something big, but she believed that she was meant to be up in the skies and she took actions and made her dreams came true, by flying for the most prestigious airline, with her quote “Don’t let anything get into your destiny.”

I’ve became really motivated ever since and found my life goal, to become a cabin crew. That plot totally depicts my background and similarly, I’ve always enjoyed travelling and serving people, and someday I do wished that I could become the “waitress in the air”. I know it’s not a really cool job to be, but the perks of travelling is more than what I can ask for.

However, one of the worst thing that could happen is that, my height happens to be on the sitting on the borders (I’m 160cm tall) as the cabin crew minimum height requirement is 158cm or 160cm for non-asian airlines OR most main carriers, they have this arm reach test of 208-212cm which they will do a marking with a sticker, and you have to touch, COMPLETELY TOUCH the marking before they pass you. Saddest thing, I’ve got short arms, even though I may be on tip toes, I simply barely touch the mark or sometimes can’t and the judges would not pass me no matter how hard I try. GEEZSH~

So, in the month of MAY, I’ve tried TR walk-in interview at Pan Pacific on a saturday morning, and I was extremely nervous that day and screwed up my interview during the second round-group interview after passing the written test. Honestly, budget airlines is my only hope because they do not have arm reach test unlike all the main carriers like SQ or CX.

On the next saturday after TR walk-in interview, I went for the SQ walk-in interview and I managed to pass the group interview this time round but I failed the ARM REACH TEST even though my height passed!!! I guess either the mark was too high or simply I had short arms! FML!!! I was super depressed and disappointed after that and for the whole day I felt like my dreams collapsed on me and the truth was simply too harsh to be accepted. Like I spend so much effort from earning lots of money to get braces and get my teeth fixed, spend lots of money again to get my eczema treated, and even studied my hospitality and tourism diploma just for the sake of boosting my chances of becoming a cabin crew. AND all I have done, was in vain… 😦

And surprisingly on two days later after the SQ interview, I received an invitation email from Scoot for interview! GEESH, I was thrilled and Scoot’s interview was probably one of airlines that I managed to passed the most rounds from the initial online application, to invitation to complete the popular 5 online quizzes that test on your mathematical skills, logical thinking, critical thinking, personality and your knowledge on cabin crew job scope and the online webcam recording interview to finally making it to the actual interview, passing through the extremely difficult test in 15mins, the height measurement and skin check (I passed it amazingly with my birthmark!) and then to the group interview, which I failed because I was sick that day and had a really bad cough, I couldn’t and wasn’t able to focus or participate. Disappointed, I should have take care of my health or maybe I wasn’t fated. The moment where you get send home from the airline after failing the round of interview, it’s really really depressing like you did so much to finally make it through to that particular stage and then they tell you I’m sorry, it’s simply too harsh.

So after Scoot’s interview, I took a two weeks break and surprisingly I received CX interview invitation to their office, which was at Changi Airport, super duper far!!! But the plus point is that there wasn’t any queue at all nor having to wait a long time for passing a certain round. CX interview was just super direct, like a normal job interview, instant application, one-to-one and the height and arm reach test which I failed because my left arm was too short to touch the mark. WHAT IS THISSS!?

Anyway, enough of procrastinating, I’m trying not think so much of all the failures that I’ve been through. 4 failed airlines interviews in just a month, it’s really too much for me to handle especially when I had to sacrifice my job to attend the interviews. Is this sacrifice really worth it? I don’t know, especially with that interest piling up on my loan, I don’t know if I’m making the right choice. Dreams and money, I chose my dreams, and I really hope that things will turn out right. From a wannabe to a try-hard, I don’t know when will I ever make it and be flying in the skies someday, or maybe never in my life.

OH WELLS … 

But on the bright side, I’m still going to try again and again for any available opportunities until my savings starts running out, then I’ll really give up on my cabin crew dream… NAHHH, I hope this won’t happen at all! Stay positive and like what Donna said, “Dont’ let anything get in the way of your destiny.” Work harder and dream big! 加油!:D

Destination: HKT !

IMG_2482_副本Hi Summer! We finally made it to another beach holiday together and this time our destination is, PHUKET!!!

HIPHIPHOORAY!! It’s a really lovely place since I’ve visited it 2 years ago with my poly classmates and now I’m back with my favourite people! I’ve been anticipating this trip since a long long while ago and finally I’m flying there on the 29th morning!

Although weather forecast weren’t as good as we hope it would be, and the rainy season came slightly earlier than expected, the sun wasn’t shining and the gloomy clouds shrouded the skies, but still I pretty much had a really good time there, thanks to my companies despite the cold chilly pool water.

So, we booked our flight tickets with Jetstar on a normal day with no promotions and the return tickets cost: $140/pax. However, Siru and Felicia chose to add on extra legroom for their flight which adds up to $200/pax for their tickets. Of course, I sat alone on the flight myself because I figured out my legs were pretty short and since it was just a 1h30mins flight, there was no need to get so much space and save that few extra $60 bucks to get some liquor at duty-free when I return. HAHA 😀

Here’s our flight details:

SIN-HKT: 0840-0940 ( We landed 20mins ahead of schedule! Awesome!)

HKT-SIN: 1720-1920 (We landed on time! YEAH)

I pretty much love Jetstar as compared to Tigerair because they are pretty much punctual in terms of their flight schedule and timing. I’ve been on Tigerair the last time I went to Hong Kong and Bangkok, their schedule is always few minutes to hours delay which is well, annoying because it screws up your plans for your itinerary.

Anyway, upon landing we got ourselves a private car at 700baht to Bang Tao. I think it was pretty pricey and could have bargain more but this was the lowest that we could get sadly. So, we hoped on to the mini bus that awaited us and soon we were making our way to the villa. Of course, we didn’t keep our expectations of the villa too high as during the journey to the villa, the surrounding area of Bang Tao was pretty much rural similar to kampong village kind unlike Patong, buzzling with shops, hawkers and lots of people. The area of Bang Tao was simply quiet, peaceful and serene, minimal tourist and plenty of locals.

AND… to our surprise we find ourselves a lovely cluster of villas that was set in between this serenity. HOW AMAZING CAN IT BE!!! Now, let me show you our villa!

Spacious, isn’t it? And the best was probably the private pool we get to ourselves!!! Yes, we can do all sorts of crazy things in the villa, such as skinny dipping! But we ended up not attempting to skinny dip because the pool water was way too cold as there wasn’t any sun to heat up the water, oh wells next time it is!

I booked this villa from Otel.com, yes Otel.com and not Hotel.com, I did not make any spelling error while typing. Apparently, I was searching for the best rate using Hotelscombined.com and Otel.com came up with the best rate of $324.87 for 2 nights as compared to other websites which were offering at least $360 plus for 2 nights for the same villa. So I figured out, might as well just book from this highly dubious website, at most there will be just additional currency conversion charges right? Turns out, there was a $3 currency conversion charge that appeared on my bank statement making the villa cost to be $327.87 for 2 nights. Still a lot of money saved! Chi-ching $! More money to shop for groceries MUAHAHA! 🙂

After reaching our villa and settling down, we took the free bus shuttle provided by the villa to head to the nearby Lotus Tesco at 1pm to have our lunch and as well as to stock up our fridge with lotsa food for the entire trip! Yeah, we bought like 8 plastics bags worth of food! I think we are well-prepared for war. HAHA 😛

There was Pizza Company at the Lotus Tesco so we had that for lunch.

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Korean Spicy Wings to share

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Thin Crust Tomyum Gong Shrimp Pizza to share with Siru

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Tomyum Sausage Aglio Olio Spaghetti that Felicia ordered for herself

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Siru and I got this to share. It’s really yummy!

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My snacks loots that I hand-carried back to SG, I’m a matcha fan here! 😀

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After lunch, the villa’s free shuttle bus came to Tesco Lotus at 4pm to pick us back to the villa. After returning to the villa, Siru and I ventured around the villa, taking plenty of photos for each other while Felicia was camping herself at the tv with her phone in her own world.

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The bed was a really super pretty place to take photos! ❤

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And so was the day bed at the balcony outside my room! 😀

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And the balcony outside Siru and Felicia’s room too!

Oops! Did I mention that I get an entire bedroom to myself? Because having an additional bed in a 1 bedroom villa was more expensive than booking a 2 bedroom villa, so we decided to have 2 bedrooms and because I was having a bad cough, they decided to quarantine me. HAHA, A WHOLE BEDROOM to myself! ❤

After the photo-taking session with Siru, we washed up and planned our night to head to Chao Fa Market which is the Weekend Night Market. It’s the biggest night market in Phuket and being the glutton me, I was looking forward to the FOOD! I miss thai food so badly, especially the last Phuket trip where P. Wirote brought us to lots of places to let us feast on the super delicious local thai food which made me fell in love with it.

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I got myself a kebab which is a definitely must-eat!

And of course I ate other food like thai noodles, deep fried squid balls and coconut smoothie (that made my cough even worst).

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That’s Siru and me at the night market, Felicia was at a shop doing her gelish manicure for only 180baht, OMG, super cheap!!

After the night market trip that cost around 1200baht for two ways from Bang Tao to Phuket Town and return, we managed to make friends with the friendly driver, who became our go-to driver for the trip whenever we needed a cab. HAHA. We returned to our villa around 11plus pm and I quickly changed into my bikini and dived straight to the pool! The water was effing cold but I endure it and soon, I got used to the cold waters and was enjoying myself while Siru sat at the latch of the pool talking to me.

I’ve got a confession to make, I have a phobia of deep waters especially when the pool water is beyond 1.2m and have the tendency of panicking when my legs can’t touch the floor of the pool or when the water rises to my neck, I’ll PANICCC! Thanks to the float, and the encouragement that Siru gave me when there was this moment, I was drifting to the centre of the pool, and I started struggling and screaming, “Siru save me!” She told me to move my legs like how you move your leg in frog style even though I was already wearing a float. Hilarious I know. But I had really bad drowning phobia. Eventually, I managed to moveee! And I found myself getting nearer to the edge of the pool and get myself back to the edge! BY THEN, I was trembling and shaking badly but guess what, I MANAGED TO OVERCOME MY 11 YEARS OF FEAR  !!! The next hour was pretty amazing as I started to learn how to swim and move around the pool in a float and I was doing pretty well. Hooray 😀 😀 😀

Then, we ended our night early by having some supper with microwave food and cakes…

Day 2, 10am: The alarm that I set started ringing and I woke up to a gloomy skies, I guess it was doing to rain and I washed up and head down to the kitchen to prepare breakfast for Siru and me! I set the dining table and put lots of effort cooking and plating my breakfast since it was the very first time I’m cooking for someone beside myself and granny.

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Breakfast Menu:

  • Breakfast Platter: 1 slice of toast, greens, 2 franks and scrambled eggs
  • Coffee / Tea (w milk/sugar)
  • Lemon Water (to detox, cause we ate too much) 😛

Yeah, both of us picked tea!

Tadaa! The toast was kinda alittle too brown because I had some problems figuring how to use a pop-up toaster.

After breakfast, was pool time and some more photo-taking sessions using the camera timer! HAHAHA 😀

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And then, it was swimming time! I managed to swim a lap with the float without holding the edge of the pool for support and I felt a sense of accomplishment for being able swim with a float!!! Excited much and soon, it was Siru’s turn to try too! She was like me afraid of swimming and struggled alot. Similarly, I gave her encouragement and guess what, she could move in the water too! Although, she still didn’t dare to swim freely with the water with the float but it was some good improvement! YEAHHH~

IMG_2210Haha the float that we have been using to learn how to swim was actually the life buoy used for saving people! I know we are really jokers but hey, we didn’t had any swimming floats with us and this was the only thing that float so why not? 😛

I really love the bathrobes that were provided, actually they felt more like yukatas, the kind of bathrobe where japanese wear to sleep? Anyway, I used it for like a cover-up after swimming but it’s really comfy! 🙂

I brought along my Lush bathbomb, a present from Glenda to the trip, been wanting to used it and finally found the right occasion! YEAH

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A tub full of pink water and BUBBLESSS!!! ❤

Welcome to my bubble world HAHAH!

#happiestgirlonearth

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After the bubbly fun, it was almost evening and we made dinner! Felicia cooked the spaghetti and I made the salad and the tomyum sauce. Ok, it was kinda my first attempt trying to make pasta sauce that was not the usual tomato or cream based and we got the tomyum paste but the wrong one, turns out it was for tomyum soup but oh wells, at least dinner looks good and taste good too!

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“Bon Appetit everyone!”

After dinner, we headed out to the night market around the same Tesco Lotus and guess what, it started to pour and the night market started packing up when we reached. We had no where to go at 8.30pm but to do our last round of grocery shopping before heading back to the villa for some drinking session!

Presenting you our 1 litres worth of Baileys Caramel that we got from Changi Airport duty-free for $26! I haven’t really tried mixing my own Baileys cocktail and I’m really thrilled!

#bartenderwannabe

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Tadaaa!

So we tried mixing Bailey’s with chocolate milk, coffee milk, coconut flavored milk and green tea.

And my personal favourite?

Green Tea + Baileys Caramel = Caramel Milk Green Tea (Alcohol version)

YUMYUMYUM

On our last day, the skies were as gloomy as usual with a little drizzle here and there and we took a walk and ended up walking to Bangtao Beach by mistake when we were suppose to be looking for eateries. HAHA.

The water looks stormy and the currents were strong and the skies were just dull, not the perfect condition to take photos sadly…

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Finally, there’s photos of the 3 of us!

On our way back to the villa, I stopped by a drinks pushcart and bought some green “cha-yen”. (Sorry, I haven’t learnt the name for thai green milk tea…) and it was super tasty!

THUMBS UP!

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Anyway, the villa was quite strict in terms of protecting their property. They collected a 1000baht refundable deposit upon check in and the housekeeping actually called us at 12pm during the check-out time to come for villa inspection and honestly, I accidentally cracked a water goblet and thankfully they did not find out, else we would have to pay for the damage and every item in the villa had a pricing list found in the compendium folder that was laying in the living room table. PHEW

And well, the trip ended really quickly and I really love the villa ALOT, especially for its price and location. This villa was considered to be the cheapest villa that we could find in terms of location as most of the cheap villa were located in the most southern tip of phuket which would take a long drive to get there.

I’ll probably be back again in phuket someday and would definitely be during the month of April during Song-kran festival! HAHAH 😛

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PS: I added another 2 bottles of liquor (Malibu & Choya) to my duty-free collection! WOOHOO~

Another May 18th

Happy Birthday to me. YEAH, AWESOME, FANTASTIC.

Meh. It doesn’t have this celebratory atmosphere once you pass the mark of 21st, birthday would then be like just another ordinary day where you wake up brush your teeth and start your daily activities.

It’s a wednesday this year and initially it was planned to have some awesome drinking time at night but somehow I wasn’t in the mood to do so again. I promised grandma to visit her tomb every of my birthday and so I did.

I woke up early and took a bus to the temple, it started pouring pretty heavily, seems like a gloomy start of the day. Once I reach her tomb, I simply started crying real badly. Although there wasn’t anyone in the columbarium but me, it doesn’t matter. My sobbing sounds filled up the empty silence of the area. Oh wells. 😦

On my way home, I felt really depressed and emotional because grandma’s death anniversary happens to be 5 days ahead of my birthday…there’s just this long moment of silence. Until Siru texted me to ask me out for dinner. They decided to go for Kbbq at SOTA and insisted that I had to go along although I wasn’t willing to.

It took me really long to reach there because I was not willing to step out of the house and kept procrastinating. BUT ultimately, I still made my way there and had delicious Kbbq that made me smell horrible afterwards.

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(Took this photo off the facebook of I’m Kim Kbbq and their food is pretty good I have to admit especially when it’s free-flow!)

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Siru also surprised me with a tiny mango cake, I was indeed truly surprised because she has never did such an act for the whole entire of your friendship history! I was really really really touched!

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Yeah to me for growing older!

Ps, I know I look like I just woke up from bed, didn’t bother dolling up myself because I was truly sad.

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Guess what they got me? A WATCH! I’ve been wanting a slim watch for ages and finally I got my hands to YEAHHH and THANKS ALOT girls!!! I know it cost a bomb but I’m really really thankful. ❤

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I’m really blessed to have you two in my life at this current stage and for the effort and time to select and buy me such a really pretty and pricey birthday gift which I would truly treasure it ALOT, and to spend time with me on my birthday, I’m at a loss for words totally. ALL I WANT TO SAY, is thankyou from the very bottom of my heart. ❤

(Really looking forward to the birthday trip to Phuket on the 29th!)