4 months ago, I was still diligently working out nearly every day at home in aim to achieve the perfect tummy like the model’s tummy above. The bottom photo that showed my tummy was captured in July.
Yes! I nearly had abs but for some reason, because of trying to keep fit and to maintain my body weight, I had been eating healthily and lesser meals to the extent that I lost some weight and because of my weight loss, my bust size shrunk. (I’m serious!)
I know everyone has their ideal body that they want to achieve or dream of getting, some wants to be fitspo, some want to be skinny and others may want something else. As for me, I have been dreaming of achieving a tanned body, that is somewhat curvy, slightly busty, and a toned tummy to look more like a brunette.
I have always had the impression that brunettes are very pretty, tan body, brown hair and I wanted to be one even though I am an Asian looking girl. Of course, I know that I may be oddly weird as every Asian girl wants to look like the Korean POP stars, skinny, tall and lean, fair skin, and big eyes. For me, it was different. I think that looking like a brunette was my version of beautiful, bust size was important and so was waistline, hips and tummy.
Therefore, in order to achieve my desired “dream” body and look, I have been working hard , doing workouts at night to tone my tummy particularly. However, my bust size shrunk from a C cup to a B and I started to fluster because I never wanted a small bust size and even when I was much younger, I wanted a bigger bust size because it looks so much prettier when you have a nice cleavage when wearing tube dresses or plain singlets as compared to a small petite A cups. (I’m not trying to be mean or what, but I thought that it will look much nicer if I had bigger cup size like how those pretty girls look in those chick flicks like Amanda Bynes, Lindsay Lohan, Amanda Seyfried, etc)
Eventually, I gave up on my dieting plans and started to gain weight by eating more and soon, I lose my beautiful tummy lines and put on several kilograms. Now, I am not able to gain back my original bust size of 34C, but rather a 32C. I think that this is rather a weird and dangerous size because if I were to lose anymore inches around my bust, I would face problem buying a bra. (Still, I want back my original bust size! Rawr~)
Anyway, I’m now contemplating to start my working out routine again because my body weight is little outrageous and that I feel slightly fat because my tummy don’t look as beautiful and flat as before. But the possibility that my bust size may shrink is preventing me from starting.
What should I do?
To shed some weight and achieve those flat tummy with pretty lines or maintain my current body size?