I’m a cabin crew wannabe

Ever since I was in secondary school, and watched this movie called “View From The Top” which talked about this girl called Donna who came from a small town  where no one believes that she could do something big, but she believed that she was meant to be up in the skies and she took actions and made her dreams came true, by flying for the most prestigious airline, with her quote “Don’t let anything get into your destiny.”

I’ve became really motivated ever since and found my life goal, to become a cabin crew. That plot totally depicts my background and similarly, I’ve always enjoyed travelling and serving people, and someday I do wished that I could become the “waitress in the air”. I know it’s not a really cool job to be, but the perks of travelling is more than what I can ask for.

However, one of the worst thing that could happen is that, my height happens to be on the sitting on the borders (I’m 160cm tall) as the cabin crew minimum height requirement is 158cm or 160cm for non-asian airlines OR most main carriers, they have this arm reach test of 208-212cm which they will do a marking with a sticker, and you have to touch, COMPLETELY TOUCH the marking before they pass you. Saddest thing, I’ve got short arms, even though I may be on tip toes, I simply barely touch the mark or sometimes can’t and the judges would not pass me no matter how hard I try. GEEZSH~

So, in the month of MAY, I’ve tried TR walk-in interview at Pan Pacific on a saturday morning, and I was extremely nervous that day and screwed up my interview during the second round-group interview after passing the written test. Honestly, budget airlines is my only hope because they do not have arm reach test unlike all the main carriers like SQ or CX.

On the next saturday after TR walk-in interview, I went for the SQ walk-in interview and I managed to pass the group interview this time round but I failed the ARM REACH TEST even though my height passed!!! I guess either the mark was too high or simply I had short arms! FML!!! I was super depressed and disappointed after that and for the whole day I felt like my dreams collapsed on me and the truth was simply too harsh to be accepted. Like I spend so much effort from earning lots of money to get braces and get my teeth fixed, spend lots of money again to get my eczema treated, and even studied my hospitality and tourism diploma just for the sake of boosting my chances of becoming a cabin crew. AND all I have done, was in vain… 😦

And surprisingly on two days later after the SQ interview, I received an invitation email from Scoot for interview! GEESH, I was thrilled and Scoot’s interview was probably one of airlines that I managed to passed the most rounds from the initial online application, to invitation to complete the popular 5 online quizzes that test on your mathematical skills, logical thinking, critical thinking, personality and your knowledge on cabin crew job scope and the online webcam recording interview to finally making it to the actual interview, passing through the extremely difficult test in 15mins, the height measurement and skin check (I passed it amazingly with my birthmark!) and then to the group interview, which I failed because I was sick that day and had a really bad cough, I couldn’t and wasn’t able to focus or participate. Disappointed, I should have take care of my health or maybe I wasn’t fated. The moment where you get send home from the airline after failing the round of interview, it’s really really depressing like you did so much to finally make it through to that particular stage and then they tell you I’m sorry, it’s simply too harsh.

So after Scoot’s interview, I took a two weeks break and surprisingly I received CX interview invitation to their office, which was at Changi Airport, super duper far!!! But the plus point is that there wasn’t any queue at all nor having to wait a long time for passing a certain round. CX interview was just super direct, like a normal job interview, instant application, one-to-one and the height and arm reach test which I failed because my left arm was too short to touch the mark. WHAT IS THISSS!?

Anyway, enough of procrastinating, I’m trying not think so much of all the failures that I’ve been through. 4 failed airlines interviews in just a month, it’s really too much for me to handle especially when I had to sacrifice my job to attend the interviews. Is this sacrifice really worth it? I don’t know, especially with that interest piling up on my loan, I don’t know if I’m making the right choice. Dreams and money, I chose my dreams, and I really hope that things will turn out right. From a wannabe to a try-hard, I don’t know when will I ever make it and be flying in the skies someday, or maybe never in my life.

OH WELLS … 

But on the bright side, I’m still going to try again and again for any available opportunities until my savings starts running out, then I’ll really give up on my cabin crew dream… NAHHH, I hope this won’t happen at all! Stay positive and like what Donna said, “Dont’ let anything get in the way of your destiny.” Work harder and dream big! 加油!:D

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Workout, Maybe?

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4 months ago, I was still diligently working out nearly every day at home in aim to achieve the perfect tummy like the model’s tummy above. The bottom photo that showed my tummy was captured in July.

Yes! I nearly had abs but for some reason, because of trying to keep fit and to maintain my body weight, I had been eating healthily and lesser meals to the extent that I lost some weight and because of my weight loss, my bust size shrunk. (I’m serious!)

I know everyone has their ideal body that they want to achieve or dream of getting, some wants to be fitspo, some want to be skinny and others may want something else. As for me, I have been dreaming of achieving a tanned body, that is somewhat curvy, slightly busty, and a toned tummy to look more like a brunette.

I have always had the impression that brunettes are very pretty, tan body, brown hair and I wanted to be one even though I am an Asian looking girl. Of course, I know that I may be oddly weird as every Asian girl wants to look like the Korean POP stars, skinny, tall and lean, fair skin, and big eyes. For me, it was different. I think that looking like a brunette was my version of beautiful, bust size was important and so was waistline, hips and tummy.

Therefore, in order to achieve my desired “dream” body and look, I have been working hard , doing workouts at night to tone my tummy particularly. However, my bust size shrunk from a C cup to a B and I started to fluster because I never wanted a small bust size and even when I was much younger, I wanted a bigger bust size because it looks so much prettier when you have a nice cleavage when wearing tube dresses or plain singlets as compared to a small petite A cups. (I’m not trying to be mean or what, but I thought that it will look much nicer if I had bigger cup size like how those pretty girls look in those chick flicks like Amanda Bynes, Lindsay Lohan, Amanda Seyfried, etc)

Eventually, I gave up on my dieting plans and started to gain weight by eating more and soon, I lose my beautiful tummy lines and put on several kilograms. Now, I am not able to gain back my original bust size of 34C, but rather a 32C. I think that this is rather a weird and dangerous size because if I were to lose anymore inches around my bust, I would face problem buying a bra. (Still, I want back my original bust size! Rawr~)

Anyway, I’m now contemplating to start my working out routine again because my body weight is little outrageous and that I feel slightly fat because my tummy don’t look as beautiful and flat as before. But the possibility that my bust size may shrink is preventing me from starting.

What should I do? 

To shed some weight and achieve those flat tummy with pretty lines or maintain my current body size?

以前的是我,去哪了?

以前的我从未为男孩子付出感情过…

以前的我从未为男孩子掉泪过…

以前的我从未为男孩子伤心过…

以前的我…是多么的快乐因为我从未在乎别人的眼光,并且并非把男孩子放在眼里,对待他们的态度是多么的潇洒,多么的沉稳…就如个大女人的风范,多威风呀!

但经过了那种种的事情后,我的态度有了三百六十度的转变,已未和从前那样了…

我现在十分讨厌现在的我,为何没有坚持着自己的信念,相信着男孩子将会是我追求梦想的绊脚石…

Donna said, “Never let anything get in the way of your destiny.”

我怎么能忘了呢?

我实在是太傻了,真不应该掉以轻心,相信了他们的甜言蜜语…

快,快醒悟吧!

Give me a second chance…

If God would give me a second chance, I wish to restart everything again.

I would do it better this time I promise.

Not going to waste my life away, and I’m going to cherish grandma more.

I want to be smart, be pretty and be less-self centred.

Ever since those taunts, I’ve became more self-centred, trying to do things that benefit myself more than benefiting others.

I didn’t used to be like that. The selfish side of me slowly gaining control of my life.

Why. Why couldn’t I be more aware of my surroundings, the people around me?

Sometimes, it can be just that contradicting, as much as you wish to care for those around you, particularly schoolmates, the way they compete with you in education, ignoring you, it just give you the doubt if you should care for them.

And maybe, I’ve seen enough of the ugly side of humans.

All I wish now is to give me second chance, restart everything and never grow any older again.

Crafting In Progress!

It’s been quite a while since I did some arts & crafts which was my favourite hobby since young. So on this random day of my holidays, I have decided to do and learn to do some simple crafts as a birthday gift for my bff (best-friend-forever) since I owe her 18th birthday gift due to her A’Levels.

And, I’ve actually bought a simple brown wooden photo frame and some craft materials like ribbons, glitters and glue.

So, check out what I

ImageUsing the box of ribbons I’ve got, I tried to learn from a youtube video about making ribbon rose! It’s my first attempt, I can’t say that it’s perfect but, I guess it does look a little like rose, don’t it?

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And taddaaa!!!

Here’s the wooden frame that I bought! It’s quite amazing that it looks so girly and all “bling-ed” up!

So, I had actually use 2 colours of glitter, silver and ocean blue to create that ombre effect since it’s really popular nowadays. Also, I used the pearls and beads that I had when I bought for my jewellery making hobby as some of the decorative for the frame! Of course, I did the round polka dot sequins myself by using a ribbons and sewing it before glueing on a clay flower on top of it!

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It looks really pretty under the light because it’s so glittery and bling like a diamond!

It really SPARKLES!!! ❤

However, I kind of feel that the frame was a little too amateur and childish and kiddy, till the next day, I’ve decided to give the frame a little re-vamp.

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Here it is!

The final look!

I’ve actually plucked off those sequins and replace the empty spaces with seashells that were picked from Tanah Lot in Bali when I was on an exchange programme with my bff.

I guess it’s kind of good memories, and I was hoping that this frame would evoke memories of my bff and I when we were in Bali and thus, I turned this frame into a more ocean-inspired look with the blue ombre effect from the glitters which reveals the sea and seabed under the sun and all those pretty shells and beads that are on the glitters.

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(A close up of the pretty beads and shells!)

Don’t you love them?

I had to glue the sides with ribbon because the wooden frame which were painted brown when I bought them off the shelf, the brown paint actually came off when my UHU glue was on it. And worst off, the brown paint actually seep through some parts of the ribbon!!! GOSH~

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Here’s how the frame actually look!

It’s a photo frame cum birthday card! 2-in-1! Isn’t it cooL?

I had insert a pink card as the “photo” with my well-wishes written on it. Of course, for privacy purposes, I had to blur those messages and I paste a really cute goofy sticker on it! CAUSE I LOVE CUTE THINGS! 😛

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Being really lazy to wrap up the photo frame, I attempted to do something really simple, starting off with making a nice blue bow. A really small one!

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You could see that I didn’t fully tear off the label of the box properly…

Still, I tried to adorn this birthday present with strips of wrapping paper and finishing it off with a petite blue bow! 

I guess it does looks good…

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And, I attempted to go another rose using a different method!

So which rose do you think looks better?

The one on the top of my post or this one?

If only…

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In every girl’s dream, we would always dream of having a guy in your life who would be able to cook and whip up a decent meal for you. Likewise, I share this similar dream as many others.

Being someone who loves food, I do enjoy cooking during free time and of course, the process of cooking and eating the food is just a joy. However, the cleaning up doesn’t seems much of a joy.

Of course, I really do wish that someone could actually whip up a meal for me and if he knew how to bake. I’ll love him to bits. I’m serious!

Anyway, I’m just daydreaming like I usually do…it’ll only happen in my dreams because I have no luck…