I’m a cabin crew wannabe

Ever since I was in secondary school, and watched this movie called “View From The Top” which talked about this girl called Donna who came from a small town  where no one believes that she could do something big, but she believed that she was meant to be up in the skies and she took actions and made her dreams came true, by flying for the most prestigious airline, with her quote “Don’t let anything get into your destiny.”

I’ve became really motivated ever since and found my life goal, to become a cabin crew. That plot totally depicts my background and similarly, I’ve always enjoyed travelling and serving people, and someday I do wished that I could become the “waitress in the air”. I know it’s not a really cool job to be, but the perks of travelling is more than what I can ask for.

However, one of the worst thing that could happen is that, my height happens to be on the sitting on the borders (I’m 160cm tall) as the cabin crew minimum height requirement is 158cm or 160cm for non-asian airlines OR most main carriers, they have this arm reach test of 208-212cm which they will do a marking with a sticker, and you have to touch, COMPLETELY TOUCH the marking before they pass you. Saddest thing, I’ve got short arms, even though I may be on tip toes, I simply barely touch the mark or sometimes can’t and the judges would not pass me no matter how hard I try. GEEZSH~

So, in the month of MAY, I’ve tried TR walk-in interview at Pan Pacific on a saturday morning, and I was extremely nervous that day and screwed up my interview during the second round-group interview after passing the written test. Honestly, budget airlines is my only hope because they do not have arm reach test unlike all the main carriers like SQ or CX.

On the next saturday after TR walk-in interview, I went for the SQ walk-in interview and I managed to pass the group interview this time round but I failed the ARM REACH TEST even though my height passed!!! I guess either the mark was too high or simply I had short arms! FML!!! I was super depressed and disappointed after that and for the whole day I felt like my dreams collapsed on me and the truth was simply too harsh to be accepted. Like I spend so much effort from earning lots of money to get braces and get my teeth fixed, spend lots of money again to get my eczema treated, and even studied my hospitality and tourism diploma just for the sake of boosting my chances of becoming a cabin crew. AND all I have done, was in vain… 😦

And surprisingly on two days later after the SQ interview, I received an invitation email from Scoot for interview! GEESH, I was thrilled and Scoot’s interview was probably one of airlines that I managed to passed the most rounds from the initial online application, to invitation to complete the popular 5 online quizzes that test on your mathematical skills, logical thinking, critical thinking, personality and your knowledge on cabin crew job scope and the online webcam recording interview to finally making it to the actual interview, passing through the extremely difficult test in 15mins, the height measurement and skin check (I passed it amazingly with my birthmark!) and then to the group interview, which I failed because I was sick that day and had a really bad cough, I couldn’t and wasn’t able to focus or participate. Disappointed, I should have take care of my health or maybe I wasn’t fated. The moment where you get send home from the airline after failing the round of interview, it’s really really depressing like you did so much to finally make it through to that particular stage and then they tell you I’m sorry, it’s simply too harsh.

So after Scoot’s interview, I took a two weeks break and surprisingly I received CX interview invitation to their office, which was at Changi Airport, super duper far!!! But the plus point is that there wasn’t any queue at all nor having to wait a long time for passing a certain round. CX interview was just super direct, like a normal job interview, instant application, one-to-one and the height and arm reach test which I failed because my left arm was too short to touch the mark. WHAT IS THISSS!?

Anyway, enough of procrastinating, I’m trying not think so much of all the failures that I’ve been through. 4 failed airlines interviews in just a month, it’s really too much for me to handle especially when I had to sacrifice my job to attend the interviews. Is this sacrifice really worth it? I don’t know, especially with that interest piling up on my loan, I don’t know if I’m making the right choice. Dreams and money, I chose my dreams, and I really hope that things will turn out right. From a wannabe to a try-hard, I don’t know when will I ever make it and be flying in the skies someday, or maybe never in my life.


But on the bright side, I’m still going to try again and again for any available opportunities until my savings starts running out, then I’ll really give up on my cabin crew dream… NAHHH, I hope this won’t happen at all! Stay positive and like what Donna said, “Dont’ let anything get in the way of your destiny.” Work harder and dream big! 加油!:D


You can never realize the importance of this until you transit from the young adult age of 19 to 20 which immediately puts you in the category of an adult.


Youth is an important asset in your life, something that it’s precious and you should treasure it dearly no matter what happens in your life and most importantly, the temptations and the incoming freedom that you achieve when you increase a tiny candle on your birthday cake each year. 

Youth is the period where we should start an approach to lead a balance life between education, social circle and perhaps hanging out with a guy. 

Education: When we are young we should put in our full effort to achieve something impressive in our education, a remarkable and jaw-dropping grade on our certificates. Yes, education is the most important aspect of your life because it path the way to your future and even impressing your future other half with your intelligence and wits. I know you might probably argue that some people succeed in life barely with any education, like you say, it’s “some” and using percentage wise, I suppose you won’t be the lucky few to fall in those category so, we should really stop daydreaming and put in some effort in your studies. 

Social Circle: You can’t succeed in life without friends, and wise people always advise us to make friends from school because they are the one whom your friendship will last the longest than those whom you made from work or other places. The reason because while you study together, you spend most of the time together knowing each other, helping one another to achieve grades and perform better. Of course, when we are young, we are less scheming and less conscious about the benefits we can reap from one another.

Lastly, hanging out with a guy, at this phase in life, boys no longer become just boys and they become guys, and inevitably you will have to face them and that something called love, puppy love, infatuation comes in, complicating childhood further and those who goes off track would turn their focus from education, to guys. Having a so-called boyfriend becomes a tool to flaunt to the studious ones, making them jealous and sad for being so dorky and nerdy. 

Well, staying strong is the only way to keep these distractions out of focus and that as long as you have the grades and have an established network of friends, being attached or single, is not an issue or a threat to you. There are plenty of boys / guys / men out there, whether you have them by your side now or later makes no difference, while education makes a difference having it now and later because when we are young, we tend to absorb concept, facts and knowledge faster than we are older.

Likewise, love always has it’s expiry date, so focus on your education and making plenty of friends to avoid regrets when you grow older!


Next Phase in Life

Officially school has started again! The start of a “new” semester with one day of school per week, the ideal lifestyle of what every student longed for, one pathetic day of school. Yes, I’m saying that it’s pathetic because it doesn’t feel like I am a student anymore but rather, some out of place student going back to school to pass that module and get that dumb certificate, maybe not dumb but who actually flunks a module because of project work? Yes, me. The one that does well for exams and tests and yet, flunk project work. I’m a total genius, ain’t I?

ImageSo as for my home, things are about to change within this school term. Grandma’s stomach cancer had spread and she is in the last phrase of her life. TTSH doctor predict her life span of 6months before she kicks the bucket. She is now reduce to bones and skin, looking very fragile and weak. Her IQ dropped tremendously and that she barely could understand what I try to tell her. As much as I dislike how she kept nagging at me everyday over the most tiniest and ridiculous thing at home, somewhat the importance of her presence weight far more than parents. All I could do is to visit her more often and talk to her. Life sucks and sometimes I would wonder what can’t my parents swap place with granny. Granny has done so much more than what my parents did for me. Old age is something not irreversible and that my life journey will soon change without her company.

As for friends, the closest people I have now would probably be Siru and Yunteng, the two who will always be there when I needed them or somewhat to talk to. Like what they always say, you shouldn’t judge friends based on appearance and that the most beautiful people need not be beautiful in the interior as well. Siru and Yunteng may not be a great fashionistas that dresses well and look extremely beautiful in the streets in their outfits or those that are super attractive, but what they have is a great personality, and that is all that matters to me because I tried to look at them with my heart and not my eyes and that’s how friendship lasted this long.

Lately, I have also quit my job in The Regent Singapore. I don’t know would it be permanently or just temporarily. I have worked longed enough for a part-time job and including completing my internship at the same hotel. I love the colleagues and I learnt and gained alot there. It wasn’t easy but they taught me well. I guess it’s time to take what I have learnt and bring it to the next company or hotel. I have interest in housekeeping department for part-time jobs and sent a couple of resumes to the hotels I am interested in and hopefully I can get my reply from them soon! (*fingers cross*)

I guess life in Singapore is just really tough and stressful, and trying to survive is just extremely difficult especially when you don’t have the support of your family 😦

FYI, just a random sidetracking from my life, the related family from my maternal side in malaysia, like those cousins who are of the same age as me are getting married this year. Yes, I totally can’t believe it. Marriage at my age or slightly older. There’s so much more in life that is about to bring and tying the knot at this age seems totally unbelievable. It kind of restrict your growth for your future prospective. Still, I should be happy for them that they found that someone who they are going to grow old and sick with. I should be happy 🙂


Enough of ranting for the day, till next time then.



A Friend or A Love?

Life always give people shit test and that sometimes there are just no way to have a win-win situation and that if you are force to make a decision to choose between a years-long friendship or a new relationship which would you pick?

A years-long friendship, is probably someone you have known for many years and that she/he would have know you inside out, what kind of person you are and understands you.

A new relationship, is probably a guy/girl that you have recently known and you could or maybe have the slightest crush on him/her or you two have already been on a steady friendship and date and it’s time to take a notch higher.

However, this time your best friend comes in and decides that this guy/girl is probably not suitable for you, and make several attempts behind your back trying to break you up and let the guy/girl leaves you silently or simply vanish without a word. Somewhat, you managed to find out what happen and that it is time you make an action.

To lose a friend who thinks that he/she may be doing the right thing for you or to believe your friend and lose the guy whom you have been going out for a period of time that your life is needy of him to be your source of humour, entertainment and security.

What would be your decision?

My New Clique!

Clique comes and go, just how friends come and go as time passes by with all the life events taking place. You would join new cliques and leave the old ones behind and soon after, those friends whom you were once very close with become less significant in your life and the new ones in your clique move up in your ranking.

I used to have a clique from school whom I once very close with but however with all the change in classes, school work and internship, we drifted apart from very close friends who could discuss anything to people whom you talk to regarding school work. It is indeed very saddening because as much as you try to, there is no way you can relive those happy moments and the strong friendship bond that you once had.

However, throughout this period, beside meeting my new friend Pam, I got to know of these 3 lovely girls, maybe one of them you might have known before, but the four of us makes really good friends.



ImageOn the far left is Glad, followed by Glenda and my god mummy, Karen!

Perhaps you might be wondering why am I addressing Karen, God-mummy? It was meant to be a joke or maybe some role-playing since she is the more matured one in our clique. I am her God-daughter and Glad is my God-sister. Where’s our God-daddy? Still in the midst of searching…

So how did we actually know each other?

In one of the funniest places you would ever think of, somewhere where it is not possible for friendship to foster. I know it’s tough, yes, our friendship started out in a club. From a friend introducing us to one another and then introducing to more new friends, that is how we actually ended up knowing each other. 

Of course, since our friendship started out because of clubbing, our common activity is to head to club and enjoy ourselves. Nevertheless, besides just clubbing, we do hang out together most of the time when our schedules allow us to, or simply we would try to make time for one another. It isn’t easy especially when Karen is working, I am near graduating and the other two girls, Glad and Glenda are still in their Year 2 or soon-to-be Year 3. 

In fact, it has been really amazing how our friendship grew so well and that we barely even had any quarrels with one another. They have been the best girls and clique that I hang out with most of the time and hopefully unlike those past friendships, this clique will last as long as it would take, even if we grow older, more mature and clubbing no longer become our main focus, we would still be able to maintain the friendship and way of communication just like presently.

They have been the best, and they just make my each day a little bit more interesting~


7 Reasons to Why I chose to be Single

People around me are getting attached or are enjoying the process of dating, basking in the happiness where you are getting pampered and treated like a princess by your favourite boy, guy or man. As for me, the lonely one, who has never ever had a boyfriend, never ever had a date, has been single since forever. Many around me has introduced me couple and several guys and I have met some nice ones as well but it has never daunted on me to decide to accept either one of them, despite all those around me getting attached and leaving me as the only one single (not yet the only one, but probably soon).

The reasons I chose to remain single was probably quite a feat to list them all, but I guess here are some of them that I could possibly think of.

1. He’s not the right one.

Everyone has their ideal or dream guy that they wish to have, be it tall, smart, dashing, gentleman, good-looking, fair , tanned, honest, funny or perhaps to the weirdest character that you might ever think of. Still, as long as the guy doesn’t fits into the check-list that you have in mind, you probably wouldn’t even give any consideration or thought about going out on a slightest date with him and most likely, you would just friend-zoned him. I guess this kind of happens to me as well, because I am a cat fanatic and of the many guys I met, none of them adored cats like I do, and perhaps, “he” won’t love my little boy, Mi Mi.


2. Freedom

Perhaps being in a relationship or being in the status of “single but unavailable”, you would kind of lose part of your freedom that you used to had when you are single. This would definitely include lesser time to hang out with your girls, your friends, your family and perhaps eating into your “alone” time. I guess it would be an obligation and responsibility to spend time with your other half to maintain the relationship and keep the excitement going on but still, you would spend most of your time hanging out with him. I may or may not be ready for this because I am someone who longed and treasure freedom. I enjoyed spending quality time alone doing things I like such as watching my favourite romance movies and chick flicks alone (I know that majority of the guy populations are never interested in such genres, and perhaps watching with them would end up kissing in the cinema and missing out in the movie content. Damn!) Most importantly, there would not be such thing as own time own target, I would probably have to wait here and there, considering about how he feels and stuffs like that.


3. The lack of confidence= FEAR

I have to admit, I am someone who has very low confidence of myself, be it on my looks or personality or character. I would probably rate myself a “F” if I had to. (I know I may exaggerating things a bit but still, I never felt that I am pretty as other chinese girls out there.) This probably is why I fear heartbreaks, rejections from guys and perhaps if I was even worthy or compatible with him and all those “what if” questions coming to my mind such as “what if he meets a girl that is prettier than me?” and then maybe I might not be able to compete or even keep his heart, blablabla. (I know you would probably say that this guy would not be even be worthy of your time, but I know girls, being girls definitely will have some insecurities about your guy when you are dating. FOR SURE!)


4. Opposite doesn’t attract.

Maybe I may have met the guy I really like, but sometimes things may not go the way we wanted and for short, he’s probably just not into me. That’s it. Or maybe vice versa where he really likes me but I have no feelings for him. You should probably know, that mutual attraction is important to let those sparks fly and voila! You are attracted to him. That sort of chemical reaction stuff that has no scientific explanation to it.


5. Open to more options

Being single gives you the luxury to chose and met new friends of the opposite gender, be it with the intention of being just friends or maybe more, still you are allowed to meet new people without having to worry or to get your guy jealous because you are going out with someone else. Of course, when you meet more people, you get to choose the best one for yourself! However, this is not applicable to me for I’m just an introvert and it would be guys getting to know me than me getting to know the guys.


6. No commitment

One of the most important criteria when you are in a relationship is being FAITHFUL to your guy. This would definitely equates to quitting your night-life activities such as clubbing and drinking sessions. As for me, being someone who enjoy attending parties and heading to club with a bunch of crazy girls and best friends and maybe some guys who tag along with us, having a relationship would most likely be a total change in the lifestyle that I am having, or perhaps if I am able to negotiate for a “pass” that allows me to attend parties provided that the guy tags along because no guy in the world would not be worried or jealous if their girl heads to the club. Therefore, being single would be the best option to head to the club to party without having to sneak out from your guy or maybe having to lie to him which kind of makes you feel like a bad girlfriend.


7. Financially Incapable

When you do go out on a date with a guy, you would definitely have to spend some money no matter what. (I am not trying to be a spoilsport, but you definitely have to admit that you do spend money when you are out on a date. Because nothing in the world is free! Unless you are probably a miser who would go all out to get freebies which is something not very impressive to do to leave an impression on a girl or a guy.) I know that most guys nowadays would be willing to pay for all or majority of the expenses when going on a date with a girl and I have to say, it is really very gentlemanly of you all to do so. Nonetheless, I am someone who can’t stand guys paying for my expenses because it is not right to do so and that I should always pay for my own consumption and with me having to pay for finance my own braces treatment, I am near or on the verge of going “bankrupt” if I have to go out on a date with guy.


I guess I have my own reasons why I chose to be single and I guess the underlying reason that I always give would probably be that I haven’t met someone who likes me for who I am.

Let me just put it this way for the time being…

Zero Relationship

I know many teens of my age have been in a relationship for at least one time and the tiny fraction of them who hasn’t mainly because they aren’t attractive enough, high expectations, too busy or bisexual. (I am not trying discriminate anyone but rather stating the facts)

As for me, I haven’t been in a single relationship before nor have I went on first date before. 

Perhaps at this point in time, if you are a frequent reader of my wordpress, I guess you would be shocked by it. Possibly, you might be even doubting me or thinking that I am lying or kidding.

Well, I am serious about it and neither have I lied about my dating experience. It is really zero! 

Many people have been asking me about my past relationship experience and when I tell them truthfully that I never had any before, none would actually believe in what I said and I had to spend lots of effort trying to convince them what I said was nothing but the truth.

They always say that I look cute and why I don’t have a boyfriend or never been on a date before.

The reason being is simple, I haven’t found the right guy or haven’t met the guy that would give me a good reason to go out on a date with.

Looking good, being able to dress up and doll myself up doesn’t implies that I am bound to have a boyfriend.

I care about how I look, how I portray myself to the world, to the public and therefore I doll up and dress well to look good. It’s not about trying to attract any guys or for that special someone which I think it’s a little silly to change yourself for someone, unless he is your lawful husband then I shall keep my mouth zipped.

Also, some may ask if my expectations were to high, and well, I think it is more like I can’t meet the expectations that most guys want and therefore I rather choose to be single?

For example, Most guys expect girls to text-message them daily and possibly several times a day that includes asking them what are they doing, where they are, who are they with, etc.

Personally, I am not the kind of person who can stand such sort of “care and concern” from a guy. Maybe because since young, my parents have never cared about me, my well-being where I am, who I am with. Now, I am so used to having no one to care about me nor being concerned about my well-being thus, I couldn’t stand all these questioning. I find them more of irritating although I know that they meant well and it’s a form of a guy showing his care for his girl.

I guess I would prefer to have less frequent questionings and not to text-message so often because I always feel that distance makes the heart yearns and keeps the relationship burning as when you don’t meet nor chat with each other, misses will grow stronger and intense and the next time you meet him/her, you would cherish that moment even more. That’s what I feel that keeps relationship alive and exciting.

I know it is hard to find a guy nowadays who agree with my way of thinking, but I chose to believe that someday such a guy would appear.