2021 isn’t gonna be fantastic too

COVID had seriously struck the world and this 2021 will just gonna be another recovery year for everyone, those who worked in important sectors like healthcare and supermarkets, good for you. Big bonuses, better pays, while the rest are just trying to make ends meet.

I suppose travelling will never resume completely at least till passed 2022, even the vaccines are not fully reliable yet, the lack of data and information, it’s simply like a trial and error, if this brand doesn’t work, you still have the other. Like how I got rejected for taking the Pfizer vaccine because I had allergy to augmentin ( a brand of antibiotics) . And I do hope that the other vaccines will be put to trials and accumulate enough datas for people with allergies . I am do kind of worried how being not vaccinated would affect my rice bowl. I still love flying, I really do, and if I had to be giving up on it if I wasn’t vaccinated, that would be probably my greatest nightmare.

Then again, I’m wrecking my brain how to earn more money, so that I can save enough to get a house on my own soon. I tried doing manicure services for others, but business is tough. There’s just to many options for others to choose, I need to try venturing into other options. I need ideas. I tried to do some small investments, I think they are doing fairly ok, but I want to gain more capital, so that I increase my amount of investments so that grow and roll more money.

I don’t want to be left behind. Everyone is getting better in life, and pursuing their goals and happiness, I need to buckle up too. Throwing away toxic friends and staying away from them was the first step that I have done, because the circle of friends will affect your lifestyle. Now, I’m trying really hard to be firm on my life principles— to not let anyone get in the way of what I want and affect me and to be more positive and also confident.

Then again, the most important thing is still health, I’m really thankful that I’ve only been into hospital once in 2020 and I’m aiming for a ZERO this 2021. No more iv plugs please. I’m also still in the midst of reaching my goal weight of 51kg, currently at 52kg and previously 57-58kg to the point my uniform felt super tight, literally a warning sign for me lose weight. I’m still trying hard to get better at pole, making more attempts to workout in the gym, going for late night walks as cardio and avoiding instant noodles too!

‘Thankfully, I met a fur kid and named him Molemole because of his small build and how he could stand on 2 legs! Such a cute cat! He is smart and responds to me when I call him MoleMole! I actually seen him in 2019 back then he was fierce and distrusting of humans and would always growl at me and asking me to back off. Only lately had he decided to give trust in me and letting me pet him, keeping me company and making laugh. A fur kid literally make life so much better and keeping me company and away from negative thoughts and a huge comfort to my soul. I still harbour this wish that I could get a home soon, so I could give him a forever home, I better work harder to achieve my goal.

Work hard babe!

HIM: Introducing- How we met?

If you have been with me for a very time, you’ve probably read all the articles that I wrote about my feelings and love, expectations of a boyfriend, etc etc…

BUT, I have never mention one before. Reason being, despite all the dates that I have been out with the various guys, from clubs, from Tinder & Okcupid, none of them are great, maybe one or two was kinda boyfriend material, but most wanted to get laid, to get me into their bed. I never met someone from school before, a guy that chase me, because I was this ugly girl and anti-social.

I could say even my part time job back then, I always mingled well with the aunties than people of my age, because I had difficulty finding common topic. And of course, my special family background, no one could understand it. Most people think, I was lying.

Obviously, I wasn’t if you have known me.

Maybe, it’s time to introduce him.

Around November 2018, I kinda completed my first year of flying and job, was more stable as I knew what to do basically and tasks in hand, maybe just not perfect with handling situations yet. I got kinda bored with flying life, and I realise that I haven’t been dating and there was no luck in my love life. The guys in my workplace, majority are gays, they are so cute to talk to, but they like guys, and the rest, mostly are attached, and some I didn’t really like because I don’t like guys that weighs around my weight. Then, I have been back on Tinder for quite awhile on and off because Tinder’s guys profiling was getting worst, and there were more guys looking for ONS and FWB than serious relationship.

On 13 Dec 2018, one fine boring afternoon that I was having my off day, laying on bed as usual, I was swiping on Tinder randomly, aimlessly, swiped through a couple bunch of guys, until this guy that I had quite an impression because of his photos. The first photo he had was a selfie in the lift and lifting his T-shirt up to capture his abs and I found it dodgy, but his thick black framed specs kinda caught my attention, I swiped to see his second photo, it was a gym photo, and he look well, ermmm fierce. Usually gym guys photos look like either muscular cool or muscular cute but for his guy he is fierce. It’s ok, I went on with his third photo, he had a friendly nice smile. Well, I always had a thing for  guys who gym and the bigger the muscles, the better. For they would better understand that girls who pole is definitely not a stripper or someone who does lap dancing. So I swiped right to him, despite him not looking handsome in his photos, maybe for that smile, black specs, and muscles I swiped right to him.

(this was one of his profile pictures)

Awww, I know you’ll be thinking, what a judge mental bitch, isn’t it? But hey what else can you see from a Tinder profile’s beside photos and maybe a sentence of introduction?

And unexpectedly, WE MATCHED!

(At that time, I gotta admit as a girl, I get matches too easily, so I don’t really have that excitement as compared to a guy I guess. It was like hey, he matched me, ok. Let’s see if he’ll start a convo, else it will be another number adding to my numerous amount of match. HAH)

Ok, before I continue on with this post, I will be writing everything based on my account and from my perspective. So, please don’t judge. I totally appreciate that.

Let’s continue…

Maybe hours lately, I can’t remember too clearly, he started to talk to me, on Tinder for quite awhile, he asked me my favourite food which was cheese fries from kfc at that time and he love it as well haha! Also, finding out that he was actually ok and understanding towards pole dancing was very important to me. Then he had a liking towards cats and at that time my silly fella MiMi was still around (it was important he was accepting towards stray cats because I hated guys who tell me eww why do you touch stray cats they are so dirty and gross) and I thought, wow this guy seems nice! He likes to gym, looks kinda decent and respectful, likes cats, older than me (by that tiny bit but still…important), shares quite a fair bit of common food interest, like sashimi and cheese fries, and acceptance towards pole dancing, doesn’t smoke (a serious deal breaker), not below 170cm (I had this weird thinking that if I wear heels, he must not be shorter than me).

At that point in time, I was bringing my giant bag of clothes to the laundry shop , those self coin operated kind to get my clothes washed. My parents were nuts that the house is not allowed to buy a washing machine and that crazy birth mum of mine didn’t allowed my to hang my laundry out to dry because she said it’s dirty and superstitious stuff, she always threw my freshly laundered clothes that were wet right at my room door. Rude af. That how I ended up having to bring my clothes to laundry shop to wash and then do the drying there as well, and to save money, I actually accumulate my clothes to one week or two weeks worth so that the washing machine is filled to the brim. So while waiting for laundry to be washed, I texted him on Tinder.

I can’t remembered when, he asked me for my number, but it was definitely before my very first Harbin flight that I managed to swapped into. The day before my Harbin flight, we took a step from Tinder chat to WhatsApp.

After reaching Harbin, I was so excited because for the first time ever, I got my own room! I did not had to share with the crew because the crew leader bought her own room, and I was thrilled. I took lots of photos and videos on instastory and I had to connect to VPN to reply to this guy as well because I told him that I would reply him when I reached. Stupid VPN, took me awhile to get connected because China had a limitation ban on IG, FB, WA, basically non-China apps. Thankfully the hotel wifi was strong, and connecting VPN was easy. Eventually I realise that it just so happened that I got a room with good wifi connectivity. So I send him a WhatsApp text and the view of Harbin in my room, probably the first person that I share the joy and excitement with, because Harbin was one of the destinations that I wanted to go before I started flying and the airline finally launched the route to Harbin!

Anyway, when I came back from Harbin, this guy asked me to meet him for a kfc meal and would treat me to cheese fries, and I turned him down. Reason being, I barely talked to him for a week and he wanted to asked me out already? I felt it was too fast because of my past Tinder dates and experiences, guys who usually rushes to the girl tends to had ill intentions. Usually if I turned the guy down, they would move on and look for another target.

But! This guy still kept the conversations on with me, although he was slightly ‘colder’ in chats and few days passed, he asked me out again on a Christmas date. This time, I agreed because I felt that it was going to be 2 weeks of chatting and getting to know the person online, maybe it’s time to get to know him in real life.

I know it was still kinda a little fast for me as I only meet them after chatting for 1-3 months later. Since it was Christmas and no guys I have ever dated did asked me out on a Christmas date, so why not right? Plus he said he was going to make plans, so I though it was be an auspicious date to go out on a date with. （I had this special thing with me about Christmas and Chinese New Year because Christmas to me was the time to celebrate with your loved ones and the joy of gifting and celebration for working hard the entire year).

It will be memorable.

And let’s keep the part on our first date in another post because this is getting too lengthy.

xxx

to be continued…

Bad news and good news, which would you like to hear?

Ok, maybe i’ll give you the bad news first so you’ll probably understand things better, or probably it will flow better in an chronological order.

and… pardon my English, I haven’t been willing to speak english at work lately, because i’m kinda into Chinese lately.

Feb 2019: I was admitted to hospital twice right after CNY because I kept vomiting non-stop after eating and even just plainly drinking water (ok i gotta admit maybe I induce some of it because the nausea feeling in me was so intense and I felt cold, pain, and awful) , the doctor send me for CT scan but they couldn’t find anything wrong with my stomach beside that it was inflamed and red. They said it was gastroenteritis but it was weird that mine didn’t recover like normal patients did and the vomiting keeps coming back when I was discharged home.  Then they probably felt it had something to do with psychological issues, they called an counseller to attend to me, and yeah, she felt that it was probably boyfriend issues and mostly, family issues.

( I was on drip always Everyday and I hated the iv plug, it was major discomfort and pain)

I had a hard time with family as usual, and with CNY, a festive period, they usually be even more nuts than usual, and I was so stress, praying that my roster had more layovers, but I had more turnaround flights which meant I had to spend time at home. I was on the verge of breaking, she would scold me right before I go to work for the most ridiculous reasons, and sometimes waking up at wee hours just to catch me before I go to work and vent her anger on me when I didn’t even talked to her at all or did anything that relates to her. I cried almost every time on the Grabhitch ride to airport. And layovers were the best time of my life. I felt peace.

(He came after his work to surprised me with this!)

Anyway, my vomiting stopped after a lot of medicine and somehow things got slightly better because of March roster and i went on a solo trip to Korea, I felt happier.

Jun 2019: I nearly broke up with him because he lied. （ which he said he didn’t because he just simply chose not tell me ) I felt like crap because I love him for his honesty and that he was a very loyal person and wouldn’t flirt with any other girls but he did. My heart was shattered. I had no idea what to do. I love and trusted him wholeheartedly thinking that he will be my last and my only, but now… I shan’t explain the details because I chose to forgive him despite all 100% odds that if I do tell you what happened everyone else will tell me not leave. Ever since then I kinda feel insecure once awhile and I had to go back to pole-dancing to curb this insecurity because once scarred, there will be a scar. I took a leap in faith against everyone’s advice, and chose to give him this chance,  I hope I won’t regret when I come back to this post in maybe 5 ? Or 10 years time.

Aug 2019: The vomiting came back again, it was serious than ever, I had to admit myself to the hospital. This time the doctor was perplexed because the frequency of my gastroenteritis relapse was too frequent, so they send me for a scope where they put this tiny camera through my mouth, down the throat to the stomach to see what’s going wrong with it. And again, they found nothing abnormal beside the redness which was due to it inflamed. This time, they sent a psychologist along with a counsellor to my hospital bedside to ‘talk’ to me. As usual they realise it’s family issues, and the only way was that I leave this place of hell that I once called home because my vomiting issue was getting serious and they doubt that it will completely cure. Psychologically, my body has already chose to vomit because once I am overly stressed out, my stomach will overproduce gastric juices which are the yellow or green fluids that I always puke. They gave me the encouragement to move out, because counselling me would not helped me at all, despite them wanting to help me.

(I know I look pale and frail here, needing oxygen to breathe.)

Sep 2019: HOOHOO!  I found a place! I moved out officially, although I still go back to that hell place once awhile to collect my letters and the little things I need that weren’t so important to bring over to the room that I rented because I had too many things. Moving out alone was a huge difficult chore because he was not free and I had to move alone, I made so many trips to and fro, so many carsickness moments, aching arms. Sometimes, I really feel proud of myself that I can carry so many heavy bags without a man’s help, although I probably look like a clown and hideous cause I’m sweaty by the end of it. Mhmm, I’m officially out of that hell place, although there’s loads of memories of there with grandma, whom I really miss dearly.

Honestly, after moving out,  I kinda realised I’m all alone. Like I don’t have friends that really care. Those so-called bffs are just fake. And the worst thing of moving out, I can’t feed any stray cats anymore. My stray furry friends are my go-to when I’m down and bored, I always spend hours with them, they are just so entertaining and therapeutic. The landlord doesn’t approve of any pets, and the neighbourhood has no stray cats because it’s a pretty new neighbourhood, sadly. And cooking is now much difficult because the owner only approves of light cooking, so basically I do microwave cooking haha and rely on food delivery on lazy days or when I’m sick.

And my gastric vomiting still occurs… usually in the morning when I wake up, all the yellow gastric juices will be out and by the later of the day after I had some food and juices, it gets better.

I shall keep my updates of my life, till here.

‘I know I haven’t been updating of my travel trips that I made this year.  I shall do so soon since my ankle is sprained from work injury and I’m down from flying temporarily, urgh, there goes my  favourite Osaka and guangzhou layover. *sobs*

Sometimes

Sometimes I wish I did better.

Sometimes I wish I was a better person.

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t a coward.

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t an introvert.

Sometimes I wish I had the courage to make my decisions.

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t this hesitant.

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t this independent.

Sometimes I wish I could be more clingy.

Sometimes I wish I could care a little less bout others.

Sometimes I wish I could be more selfish towards myself.

Sometimes I wish I could be more self-centered.

Sometimes I wish I was born to be the opposite me.

Sometimes, I wish that everything would just start afresh,

and this sometimes just never seem to be able to happen.

 

 

4 months into flying

Ok, officially reached the 4months mark into flying. I’m not particularly thrilled over flying now, that I have reached 4 months, nearly 2 more months till probation ends if everything goes well.

Everyone has been asking been, how’s flying? How’s your flying life? Seriously, I will reply, up in the airplane, mundane and shitty. AND LAYOVERS? Fantastic and fabulous, lovin’ it.

AND WHY?

It must be the passengers. Haha nah you are so so so wrong about it.

Anyway, I’m thankful for the passengers at times, they really saved me for a lot from bad flights and maybe I have been in the hospitality industry for quite awhile, and the one hospitality motto that I learnt was to “treat others the way you want to be treated” and it has always been in my head no matter what, because it has never gone wrong till today.

And guess what, apparently most people disliked china flights because of the passengers but still I really like them for it’s really easy to engage in a conversation with them. They would ask alot about airlines and air attendants life and it’s always interesting to share with them little things that they would go “wow” and “oh” and helping them with their curiosity, it makes my day happier when they leave with a smile or a “谢谢” when they walk pass my door upon disembarkation.

Then again, I’m always having bad luck because I rarely get rostered to a china flight, my first and second month, I had none, and then I prayed so hard and finally I got 2, and then on this fourth month, I only had 1 and where do I frequent most? Australia and India and Saudi Arabia, they aren’t my cup of tea because I always have trouble speaking in English, while doing service, like my brain just doesn’t seem to be willing to process English quickly. It always take me like at least 5 seconds to digest one instruction in English, which is terrible. I have been trying really hard to speak English but ends up forever failing…oh wells, 2 more months till I can swap flights! Then I shall get swap away all other flights for just China.

Ok, I’m seriously a China fan here. I love their rich culture and history, and I feel so at ease down there, like as though I live there long long time ago, or maybe I do…hmm… But anyway, food in china is awesome, although they do have a weird smell but just put the food in your mouth, and bamn! That’s when magic works, the food would taste usually surprisingly delicious! And of course, the gyms in China hotels are well, amazingly fantastic. Like a downsize version of legit public gyms in Singapore, and well nobody gyms, so you get the whole entire gym to yourself! How awesome!

And I always do that satisfy my tummy first and then burn those sinful calories in the gym and that’s why I really like China that much.. Hahaha. 😛

Then again, there is so much happening and going on from june onwards and I don’t know how things will be like, I’m hoping for some good changes at least… *fingers crossed*

 

 

SNY Checked, 1st Solo, in due time

6 weeks of training passed really quickly and in no time, I started my first training flight to Guangzhou. I was really nervous but thankfully the crews were really nice to us and guided me along patiently.

All I could remember was that on the 2nd day of my training, I really wanted to give up as I wasn’t able to get used to going back to study and donning on full makeup and most importantly waking up super early because I lived far away from training school. I guess that’s where your batchmates comes in. I became very close with this batchie who was an intern from my diploma and she, herself was a reminder to me why I joined cabin crew. I remembered I had braces and I couldn’t apply for cabin crew for internship which was one of the regrets I had and of course, she constantly reminded me and encourage me each and everyday and day after another, time flew. The next thing I knew, we were on our last training class and SNY (supernumerary flight aka training flight) was just the next day. I was assigned a Guangzhou turn and a Nanjing layover.

I was really blessed to be able to get China flights for training because I’m more of a chinese person so it was easier for me to be talking to the passengers and most importantly, I was able to learnt chinese aircraft terminalogy from my mentors which I never had the opportunity to learn in school.

The next day was my Nanjing layover and the flight was delayed for an hour due to busy air traffic in China. We reached our crew hotel an hour late and well, the weather in Nanjing was freezing cold. I think it was 8 degree Celsius. I was really really excited because it was my first time in Nanjing and the senior crews brought me out for dinner and we braved through the chilling wind and jumped around like little kangaroos to keep ourselves warm. It was really funny and I still remember the scene vividly.

Anyway, I cleared my SNY and I was a little not that confident because I was really nervous about forgetting stuffs, especially with numbers and I had to always constantly go through those important figures before flight to refresh my old granny memory.

My first solo to Melbourne is at midnight today and I’m really nervous. I haven’t been to Australia before and I hope I don’t end up looking like a lost sheep hehe.

I guess this is probably the last time I’m going to post about my crew life until I pass my 6 months probation and for those who dream of being a cabin crew, like I’ve mentioned before in my previous cabin crew interview post, if that’s your dream, keep trying for the interview till you make it. The training journey may be tough and arduous, and there will be ups and downs, there will be times you feel like giving up or doubting yourself, especially the initial phase because you haven’t been studying for a long while, it takes a really long time for your brain to process information and remembering it, but one important thing is that, don’t give up. Make friends with your batchies, like me, I may not be an extrovert, but at least have one or two close batchmates, they will keep you company and give you the encouragement you need and most importantly, your pillar of support to help each other complete the training journey.

Well, dream big and be that 大不死的小强！

Have a lovely saturday.

Signing off 😀

Solo Travels: Bangkok

It was a really last minute impromptu decision to go on a getaway in late october and even though everyone was telling me not to go alone, I decided to ignore their nasty opinions on the notion of “dangerous”, “scary” and all sorts of other comments like getting robbed, or kidnapped and when ahead as planned because I asked, and everyone wasn’t free and I decided to go solo again since it was really enjoyable on my last solo trip as I had the luxury of time and decision to plan my own schedule.

Initially I was indecisive between going to KL or BKK and eventually, I chose BKK because

1. Price (cost of going to KL and BKK was almost the same, so why not go further.)
2. SCOOT happen to have a sale (2 way tickets nett was SGD91.41!)

Eventually I book my tickets with Scoot but on NOKScoot website instead of Scoot website to avoid the hefty credit card fees of $27 on Scoot website and instead I paid only $8 on NOKScoot website, HEHE, I’m the perfect budget traveller!

26Oct: TZ298, SIN(06:30)-DMK(08:25)

28Oct: TZ291, DMK(15:50)-SIN(19:15)

It was my first time to be on Scoot all Boeing 787 planes and I was really excited as the last time I took Scoot was a few years back when Scoot first started with Boeing 777 planes that were obtained from its parent company, SIA.

Before my trip, I had researched alot to ensure that my trip would be safe and that I would not miss my flight like before anymore and because Thailand’s king passed away 2 days after I booked my flight, I had to ensure that I follow some of their culture to make sure that I do not offend them since they were in their 30days mourning period.

As well as, it was my first time getting to Don Mueang Airport instead of the new Survarnabhumi Airport which had airport rail that I could access to the city. There were barely any information on getting out of Don Mueang Airport and I don’t really trust their taxis especially when I’m alone. (I shall share with you the transport information more later in the parts of my Day 1).

As for my hotel, I had done all my researched based on their distance from the BTS and of course, I needed a bathtub HAHA. I had shortlisted a few hotels like:

• The Heritage Silom
• I Residence Silom
• Salil Soi 11 (I saw this hotel in my last trip to Bangkok and it looks promising and new.)
• Admiral Premier
• Bangkok City Hotel
• Luxx at Silom
• Citichic by Icheck Inn

In the end, I chose I Residence Silom over The Heritage Silom although both were similar and were right beside each other because of the price, IResidence Silom was slightly cheaper than The Heritage Silom. I booked it at $109.44 nett for 2 nights, which included complimentary breakfast for 2. The hotel was 0.1km walk from BTS Chong Nongsi and had a nice rooftop pool. (Ok, I kinda regret it, as it was a quite an old hotel that was badly maintained…but still, I miss Aloft Sukhumvit!)

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Day 1: I packed my backpack at night after I ended work at 5pm and left home around 10.30pm and took bus 45 to Serangoon MRT before heading to Changi Airport. I reached Changi Airport around 11.30pm and it was very empty and quiet, beside the long queues at the taxi stand of the arrival hall, there was barely anyone at the walkways. I headed to Xin Wang at around 12.15am to get some supper and stayed there till 1.45am before heading to Terminal 2 Departure hall.

This was my supper, I was actually craving for Koi Milktea and Ramen but I guess this is the best that I could get and it cost me almost $18 bucks for supper. YIKES!

On my way from Terminal 3 to Terminal 2, look at how empty the link bridge is and there’s me in the lift with only eyebrows drawn, looking nervous, excited and yet sleepy.

I headed to the end of Terminal 2 where Scoot/Tiger Check in Row is and apparently, it was still open and I manage to check in, in advance before the check-in counter opens! So apparently in Changi Airport we are able to check in ahead of the usual 3 hours. That was cool! And the blur me didn’t even know this until this day, damn I could have my supper in the transit terminal with more delicious options! GRRR.

Anyway, after checking in and clearing immigration, I decided to find a table and chair to sleep and eventually doze off at the area where the computers are until 3.45am where they had a routine check and one of the airport police officer woke me up to ask for my passport and boarding pass. After the commotion, I couldn’t get back to sleep anymore and I went walking around and found myself this little corner with movie screening and quiet corner on the L3 near the transit hotel that was only accessible by this hidden lift in a corner, DAMN, I was looking for this place the whole time! I didn’t spend much time there before my stomach started growling and it was time for breakfast. HAHA

I went to 7-11 to grab some drinks and guess what I saw, Chun Cui He Latte in the fridge! I was thrilled and I grab one bottle and started slurping like a happy little girl and got myself some waffles biscuits to snack on while on board.

I boarded the 787 plane at around 6.10am and I was indeed well fascinated by the window seat as the windows were controlled by some buttons panels which allow me to adjust the shades level, NO MORE USE OF WINDOW SHADES like the A320 Neos hahaha!

Look at how pretty the sunrise was and the ginormous wings of the Boeing 787!

We landed approximately at 7.30am sharp (Bangkok Time) and the flight journey took only 2hours! Love how speedy 787 is as compared to A320s hehe! Anyway before the plane landed, some random thai guy came and sat on my row of random blue and started talking to me and then asked to exchanged numbers and asked where I would be staying…FISHY! I wasn’t really willing to talk and had to pretend to fall asleep, WHY WOULD YOU PICKUP A GIRL ON THE PLANE TSKKK!

Stepping my very first foot into DMK Airport, well it was kinda older than Survarnabhumi airport but not as worst as I was expecting like the Phuket Airport hahaha. And there’s the pretty 787 fella who brought me to Bangkok! YEAHHH, holidays officially starts!

Ok, so clearing the immigration took a really long while as although I landed at 7.30am BKK Time, I managed to clear immigration at 8.40am, the queue was effing slow and long even though I was on the ASEAN line, but at least there was WIFI to keep me occupied HEHE!

Upon exiting the airport, right outside the exits, you’ll see counters for taxis and buses…So there’s two viable options for me, take the airport buses A1/A2 (30baht per trip) or the newly launch Airport Limoexpress (150 baht per trip).

FYI: Airport buses A1/A2, A1 buses runs to MO CHIT while A2 buses ends at BTS Victory Monument. I forgot the first bus, but the buses starts pretty early. Eventually I took the A2 bus to BTS National Stadium. The A2 buses stops at several stops, like around (4-5stops) and as well as Mo Chit BTS, Saphan Kwai BTS, Ari BTS, Sanam Pao BTS and lastly ends at Victory Monument BTS bus interchange.

As for the Airport Limoexpress, you will have to book via the website: http://www.limobus.co.th/ , a day ahead of your trip, the earliest bus started only at 0930 (BKK time) from DMK to either Khao San or Silom. Initially, I booked the bus at 0930, however I did not expect Scoot to land way ahead of time and hence I decided not to wait till 0930 since I was out of the airport at 0845.

These were information I found on the website, and it was pretty true. The buses were rather old, similar to those I took before from Johor, Malaysia back to my grandparent’s place in Kota Tinggi. The bus driver will have a ticket assistant whose English is understandable, so it was easy to ask her which stop to alight.

Since it was my first time on the bus, I wanted to sat nearer to front so that I wont miss my stop and ended up there was only the front seat left, so I sat behind the driver. HAHA, and there’s my tiny little bus ticket!

The bus journey was about an hour long.When I reached Victory Monument interchange, I had to climb up to the overhead bridge link to get to the BTS. Everyone was wearing black, and thankfully I wore black too! The BTS took quite awhile to reach and I think I reach BTS Chong Nonsi station at around 1015 if I remembered correctly.

The hotel front desk was hard to locate as it was right in the carpark area and it took me awhile and asking hotel guests before I could find it. HAHA. So I asked for check in and as usual, they need to photocopy your passport and 1000baht deposit. Surprisingly, my room was ready and it was on the 8th floor.

The room was pretty small, from what I booked actually…

Views from my hotel room of the BTS before I requested for a room change down to the a lower floor room because the room type that I book wasn’t available on the higher floor thats why they downgraded me to give me a higher floor? WHAT IS THIS? Anyway, I was then given a 3rd floor room with no view. The view was their entrance of their meeting room building and rooftops of neighbouring units…OH WELLS 😦

I didn’t stay in my room much as there was this creepy feeling to that room or maybe that hotel. Or maybe it’s just me… I don’t know.

Right after I settled down, I headed straight out to Union Mall (Phahon Yothin MRT Station) and doze off in the train hahahah!

I went straight to KFC to search for that delicious tomyum chicken cutlet rice but it wasn’t available anymore so I took the escalator back up to that boat noodles shop that previously Felicia brought me to.

There’s beef tendon balls, thick pork soup noodles, thai beancurd noodles and afterwhich I ordered a thick beef soup noodles and a longan drink. I can’t remember how much I spend anyway haha.

I went shopping and there wasn’t really much to buy as everything was black and black and more black and things were kinda pricier than before. I only bought a 2tops a cardigan (180baht) and some cute little pens at 20-30baht each.

After which at around 4pm, I decided to head back to the hotel. On my way back, I stopped by at Silom Complex, it was like a mini version of the megamalls. It had plenty of food options at the basement and there was KRISPY KREME! 

It was raining heavily and seeing Ippudo, it literally was calling my name to step in. HAHA. Ramen cravings satisfied anyway! YEAHHHs. After ramen, I went to the supermarket nearby to stock up my food and drinks and the supermarket has barely foreigners, mostly locals and they were talking to me in thai hahaha!

Here’s my Strawberry Yoghurt donut I think or was it Strawberry Cheesecake? It cost only 30baht!!!

After heading back to the hotel from Silom Complex, I unload my shopping bag before heading out for dinner at MBK, at BTS National Stadium Station. I wanted to buy some sweet smelling scrub from Beauty Buffet but it was 300ml and I realized I didn’t had any check-in luggage purchased. DAMN. So I went up to the foodcourt to get my dinner, thai basil pork rice. I sat there for a really long while till the food court close haha, I was using the free wifi at the foodcourt because my hotel wifi signal was so bad, my iphone couldn’t connect to the wifi at all.

Until, I was booted out of the food court, I realize I forgot the refund my foodcourt’s food purchase card and I had 80 baht left inside, oh wells, there goes my money…

I ended my night early for Day 1 as I was super super MEGA TIRED.

Day 2: I almost couldn’t wake up in time for breakfast. I woke up at 0915, washed up pretty quickly before rushing down for breakfast as breakfast close at 1000 sharp.

Breakfast was on the 10th floor, the highest floor where the rooftop pool is.The staff at the icafe which they call it for their breakfast is pretty friendly. They had a salad bar which has a variety of food which I did not touch because I saw plenty of housefly flying around haha. They had a toaster with a small selection of bread and rolls to choose from, 2 juice options and milk, coffee/tea options and then porridge, 1 soup option and several hot food choices.

I took the guava juice which was pretty tasty and my favourite cream corn soup, super delicious!!! And the yakisoba which was super tasty and chicken potato stew was good too, the rest just mehhh, not that fantastic.

Yes the reason I wanted a room change was because of the window sofa bed but sadly the low floor one had no view at all and I was very disappointed. But one of the reason that I enjoyed travelling alone is because I get the luxury of the entire queen size bed to myself. I don’t get to enjoy this on normal day since my bed is just a single size one and room square metres of 34! That’s a good big space for one person!

And my morning soak with the fizzing cubes from Sephora!

After which it was a day at Pratunam Market, Platinum Mall and Big C! So I alighted at Ratchathewi BTS Station and walked there and guess what, the new link bridge is up which links you to Platinum Fashion Mall, although parts of it is still in the process so that you can be linked from Big C to platinum but the link bridge is really well designed!

Guess where I was heading to for lunch?

Yes that Soi 19 Petchaburi wanton mee! And a random green milk tea from a road side tall that cheated me with over half cup of ice! GRRR

And then shopping at Pratunam market, honestly it was really really hard to shop alone because it was hard to bargain ALONE! Damn but still I manage to get some clothes at less than 150baht. HEHEHE and I got a really pretty bikini for 380baht sadly.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(Ok, took this in my room, you gotta pardon my messy room)

After Pratunam Market, it was time to shop at Platinum Mall, and honestly there wasn’t any fancy clothes that I like. They look really boring and dull or maybe it was because of the mourning phrase.

I don’t know what’s so fancy about escalators I guess I was too bored. HAHA

I’m up at the food court again for food.

I bought my card and got myself a seat to put my heavy shopping bag before heading to get my foooooooood!

Taddaaa stir fry tomato pork fusilli and my favourite thai green tea!

After dinner, I left Platinum Mall and headed off to my favourite place.

BIG C SUPERCENTREEEE!!!

Don’t you love grocery shopping heheheehe! I think spend like a few hours in the supermarket combing for my favourite drumstick biscuits and sadly they didn’t had it until I found it in my hotel 7-eleven.

I was extremely fascinated by their supermarket alcohol varieties! They had so much unique flavored liquors that Singapore doesn’t have! I really wished I could bring them back, DAMN!

My last stop of the day was this shop to customize your name on a leather passport holder with one free charm which cost me 100baht! And of course, I sat outside the shop as there was free wifi again haha!

 

 

So this was the amount of snacks that I bought! It was really alot!!!

I didn’t but much clothes but mostly for work.

And I ended up night with 7-eleven food and a bottle of Melon Smirnoff! Delicious!

Day 3: I woke up late again as usual, and headed late for breakfast haha.

Breakfast wasn’t as delicious as yesterday’s. Cream of seafood was tasty, French toast was alright, fried rice were alright and five spice pork noodles were tasteless and cold. Cabbage with bacon was too much and chicken was tough.

This was the dining area, it’s quite small actually, there’s an air-conditioned room with no view so I’ll rather sit outside since it isn’t that humid.

The pretty infinity pool! But I didn’t go for a swim because the weather was pretty chilly.

The view from the swimming pool area.

Before checking out, I wanted to head to the Rainbow Unicorn Cafe that everyone was raving about but turns out that some horrible website stated 10:30 am as their opening hour and turns out that they hadn’t open when at reach at 11:00am as they stated there 12:00pm. DAMN! I couldn’t wait as I had to check out by 12:30 and head to the airport so I left.

And I sat at Mcdonalds with my SGD3 Large Size Matcha frappe and free wifi till 12.20pm before heading my to the hotel to check out.

After checking out, I took the BTS to Mo Chit Station and saw this nail place that provides Gelish Manicure for only 200BAHT???! Damn why hadn’t I notice this place.

Then I took a left turn to that overhead bridge, down the stairs and to the bustop with sign that said Chatuchak-Don Mueang! And waited for about nearly 20minutes before the A2 bus came and board it to head to DMK! Thankfully traffic was smooth flowing and I arrived at the airport super early!

After getting my boarding pass, I went to 7-eleven to purchase my favourite microwave food and sat there eating like a total backpacker even though there are plenty of affordable food at DMK as compared to the overpriced airport food at BKK airport.

And I never realize that every Scoot plane had a name!

And I returned to Singapore safely with a enowned rainbow lighting from the interior cabin. Guess what happened again? There was this Indian man who sat beside me and tried to hitch on me and said he was from Nepal and so on, and upon landing he wanted to exit quickly when the lady sitting at the exit aisle is not yet leaving and that Nepal guy hit me on my head, I nearly lose my cool and wanted to whack him…but I didn’t and left the plane with my blood boiling. HMPH 😦

Yes and I bought a new bottle of peach liquor from duty-free! 😀

The trip could have ended well if that Nepal man did not hit me on my head, which man hits a woman? COME ON…

Anyway end of story, no point grumbling xx

 

 

Another Solo trip-Bangkok

Honestly, I knew I was lying when I said that this solo trip was a reward to pamper myself before crew training start next month. The reason was just simply to escape from the torture house, all day all night, I had sucidal thoughts, it was really bad. They kept on mentually hurling me with mean and hurting words.

The only way I could shun from this was to escape even if it was just a short 3days trip, I feel really peaceful and happy even though travelling to Bangkok alone is pretty risky for the blur queen like me, but still I had to stay away from the torture house.

At least I can keep my inner peace and be myself till training starts.

My email has been already flooded with crew training programmes, schedules and lots of documents to read, uniform to be collected and altered by the 3rd Nov before training starts and yet I’m putting them aside for awhile till I’m back. (I took a sneak peak at the training programme and it totally stress me out, training classes are all tightly squeeze and packed 3rd-4th Nov is orientation days, training starts on the 7th and graduation will be 15th Dec, which means I’ll get to fly in Christmas and be away in New Year as well, I don’t know whether to be thrilled or sad because I have yet to experience the loneliness from being away from your base.)

Enough said, I’m actually at the airport right now typing my thoughts after staying up the whole night walking around and eating and then having short naps here and there. It’s almost time to board my plane! It’s been a few years since I flew with Scoot and guess what I got a window seat! Which means I will be able to see sunrise later…EXCITED!

Really really really got to go, please pray hard that I will be safe and sound and return in one piece and not get lost anywhere. PEACE 😀

 

Staycation: FOUR POINTS SHERATON!

The long awaited staycation finally came, after weeks and weeks of waiting. It was my first staycation with Yunteng and I was really excited about being away from home and work for a good one day to chill and relax.

SO why did we choose FOUR POINTS SHERATON? over the so many other hotels in Singapore? Well, because mainly it met our budget of less than $150/night and it was in the area with plenty of activities and food places.

Actually, Four Points Sheraton was previously the old Riverview Hotel Singapore which everyone remembers for the murder case that happened few years back in Room 1511 and I didn’t google on the exactly room location until I returned home from the staycation and turns out that the murder scene was just a room below ours…HMM… I wonder if the room is available for hotel guests or has it been blocked permanently?

Anyway back to the more juicy details about the staycation! I left my house at around 12noon on Saturday hoping that we could check in at 2pm sharp and have enough time to SUNTAN!!! Yeah, my favourite activity!

This was the lift lobby view from our 16th storey floor. It has a really nice curved porch where you can take lots of instagram-worthy shots but I was too lazy to pose and wanted to head straight into the room to snooze! HAHA 😛

We book a superior room and twin beds and requested for a bathtub and highfloor and they acceded to our request and in our room there was this lovely sofa bed by the window with a nice spotlight right smack in the middle which gives the window place one of the best spot in the room to take photo!

(I’m alilttle lazy to edit the photos so pardon if it’s not pretty enough.)

With Yunteng 😀

The view was really spectacular so I can’t help doing some of my favourite yoga poses! HEHE 😀

“When you have a spontaneous friend who joins you in attempt of a Lord of the Dance yoga pose, it’s AWESOME!”

We took quite awhile with photos-taking at the pretty window before we finally dressed ourselves and headed to the pool for some tanning action! FINALLY 😀

I brought my blue polka dot bikini that I got in Bangkok earlier this year and my sunglasses from my last year’s Shenzhen trip!

The pool side was nothing spectacular or pretty, it was the exact similar pool as the old Riverview hotel, so we didn’t take much photos at the pool.

Around evening we headed to Liang Court to grab some dinner and Medi-ya to do some grocery shopping! And I got myself a cider heheehe

So Yunteng took a sneaky pic of me while as waiting for her to snap photos of the river’s nightview and it just happen that Intercontinental @Robertson Quay which was in the making is in the background…OHHH, good old memories of that building site as it was the former Gallery Hotel Singapore on Nanson Road and there was me, cleaning room as a chambermaid and occasionally slacking while looking out from the windows, now that it has gone into history…memories… HAHA

Brought Yunteng to my favourite casual hunt, Saizeriya! Decent italian food at affordable prices and she loved it, that explains the aplenty of selfies haha.

And after dinner we headed back to the hotel and I passed her belated present as I wasn’t able to give her on time because I was busy occupied with my cabin crew training paperwork and contract… So thrilled she didn’t mind that her present were late and in fact she’s was really happy with the presents! YEAH 😀

It’s my first attempt on yoga ball to assist on a back bend, and I have admit, it really helps open up your back and shoulders alot more than not using any equipment to do a backbend, THUMBS UP!

Apparently, I was attempting to do a yoga ball pushup but it was really hard to maneuver as it was my first time trying and ended up sliding to that position…EMBARRASSED HAHA XD

Well, it’s another attempt using yoga ball to do an assisted elbow stand scorpion pose, not too bad for a beginner I guess, although it’s not a perfect one!

Practiced my bridging too and Yunteng decided to join me!

I taught her the camel pose too and it look pretty good and we manage to do a double camel pose! It was my first time snapping yoga pose with a partner (which has been my dream to have a yoga partner for once) and I really love how it turns out! THANKS ❤

There’s the opposite attract haha, doesn’t it looks like this icons ><

I really love the gym lighting and backdrop, pretty place to take yoga photos, if only there was a pole, it would be really really pretty to take pole pics!

After gym and stretching sessions, it was my favourite activity, BUBBLE BATHS! Look at thick blobs of bubble foam! Lovingggggggggg it WOOHOO!

It started to pour heavily and the rumbling thunders could be heard from the window and we decided to stay up to play some real monopoly which evokes lots of childhood memories and of course, not forgetting my Albens Apply Cider that I got. (It was good, better than Somersby and Strongbows as it’s really less less sweet!)

We woke up late the next day and check out of the hotel at 1.40pm even though we requested for late check out till 1pm, they did not charged us for the late check out hehe!

Bye, Four Points Sheraton, it was a lovely stay 😀

After checking out we headed to Cineleisure to catch the horror movie that we had been wanted to watch before we headed back, it was an impromptu decision but I did enjoyed myself alot hehe!

So looking forward to my Bangkok solo trip next 🙂

Don’t give up if you don’t make it!

This is a continuation of my previous I’m a cabin crew wannabe!, you can click on the link to read if you hadn’t! 😀

It’s been been 4months since my last interview with CX and I’ve been to many other interviews with other airlines and repeated some of the interviews again. The long waiting journey was arduous and mentally challenges because each rejection was like another dreams and hopes being dashed.

I’ve went to SQ interview again on July and I couldn’t make it pass the group interview. I remember the group interview question was “What was the recent movie that you watched and what was it about?” I completely blanked out and replied them with my favourite all time movie “View From The Top” which was an old movie but I re-watched it the night before the interview.

Also, I’ve been to MI’s interview at Changi Airport in their crew office. On my first try, I made it to the 1-to-1 interview but did make it to the management interview. It was a great disappointment. Their interview stage that I went through was:

1. Registration (Certificates and documents check and with 2 passport photos)
2. Height check and arm reach test (208cm)
3. Group interview in group of 10 (Question was: Introduce yourself and tell us why you want to join Silkair?”)
4. Uniform-fitting and skin check (They will check for visible scars and marks and tattoos under normal office lighting)
5. Short walk (They will ask you to walk to and fro just to see your posture and confidence.)
6. 1-to-1 interview (They will ask you varying questions and to read a short passage on cabin crew announcement in English with preparation time of 1min)

After that, they told me I could go home and thanked me for my time. It was really heart-breaking after been through so many rounds, I told I might have a chance to make it to management round and probably getting the job. Feeling a little unconvinced, I came back to MI’s interview on the month to re-try and this time, I didn’t make it pass the group interview.

In early September, SQ finally had another interview again, this time I went without any hopes but to try my luck and guess what, I failed again as usual not being able to pass the group interview. (The question this time was, What is the one item that you have to bring when you travel excluding the must-brings?) There were 2 out of 10 of us make it and their answer was his stinky pillow and a book. There was also another guy who also mentioned his stinky pillow but he did not make it pass, so I guess it really depends on your luck.

Just when I was about to lose hope for my cabin crew dream once again, JQ replied me. I was astonished!!! It was JQ and not 3K which means layovers in more international destinations and not just Asia countries with mostly turnovers! OMG! And yes, I will be mostly away in Singapore since it was an Australia-owned company which is what I hoped for. Applying for JQ was easy as I just had to send my resume to their website and wait for their response, it took several months before they finally responded and invited me to their office in Changi Airport for an interview.

The interview was short and brief, I had to fill up an employment form and then do an arm reach test which I missed it by a few cm, but they still passed me. Then it was a 2-to-1 interview with either the HR or senior cabin crew or the cabin crew trainer. The first thing they looked at was your highest certificate qualifications, they were very particular about it. I’ve got a Diploma in Hospitality and Tourism and they were impressed with my O’levels results, so it was a breeze for me during the interview as they only ask me one question, “What is your job scope for your current job”.

After which, it was more like a briefing as they told me the cabin crew salary range which was around 2.2k gross on average and that there will be 2 weeks of training in Australia and only 10 days a month that I will be in Singapore. They also asked me if I could swim without a life-jacket as apparently it’s Australia’s aviation rule that all flying crews need to be able to swim without assistance. So yes, I can’t swim but I told them I could, but barely. (I was thinking of going for a quick swimming lesson…)

I made it and got a called from them that the next round of interview would be the coming Saturday with a swim test. I panicked because that day I had work and it was too rush for me to find a swimming lesson in just 5 days. Eventually, I made a really heart-breaking decision to reject this wondrous offer that had high chances of me earning my wings. It was really devastating for me because after all the countless being kick-out from not making pass the interviews, my vision was blur and that I don’t even know what my future would be like if I don’t earn my wings soon.

I don’t want to be end up working a hotel ever again because being stuck in a building not knowing when is daylight or nighttime, it feels miserable. The pay is low, even lower than what budget airlines are offering and doing something that I don’t like for the rest of my life is just miserable.

ANDDD, on the late September when I thought there was no more hopes for me,

SCOOT FINALLY SEND ME AN INVITATION TO THE INTERVIEW!!!

(Shingzzzz, I can see gold rays finally shining on me! HAHA)

Ok, so after my previous May interview with Scoot, I deleted my account and recreated one in August and resend my application again and then, they send me a link to do the five quizzes as usual and then the 3 interview online questions recording, I didn’t manage to do well for the recording and was a little lost for words… so I thought it was hopeless already.

The interview this time was at their Scoot office and not the previous William Angliss Institute and this time there was no interns, it was just plainly people around my age or working adults, like all other cabin crew interviews. Ok, I’m going to post a separate detailed post about Scoot’s interview stages and process in another post but anyway, I GOT THE JOB! (Ok maybe not, I’ve yet to pass my medical check and that 2 long months of training. So not officially gotten my wings…but still, YEAHHH! No more cabin crew interviews for me!)

(This was the photo that I submitted for Scoot’s application for the full-length photo! Previously, I submitted a formal full-length photo, but this time I just wanted to make it fun but sending this informal one! HAHA :P)

Well, I’m happy and thrilled that my cabin crew interviews journey has finally come to an end and I will be embarking on another new chapter of my flying life soon, hopefully. I guess what the movie-View From The Top, Donna said was right, “Never let anything get in the way of your destiny.” If you want to fly, you’ll work hard for it and try even harder, failures are just part of the process, some people get it in one try, some people get it several times later. You will eventually, if you do not give up. I’ve got it on my tenth time and yes, I’ve heard so much about people getting their wings after their 9th or 10th tries which I initially doubted their stories, and finally I realized that yes, it does happens. Perseverance is also another way to reach your dreams and to sum this chapter of my journey up, here’s my cabin crew interview timeline:

May:

1. Tigerair (FAILED-group interview)

2.Singapore Airlines (FAILED-arm reach)

3. Scoot (FAILED-group discussion)

4. Cathay Pacific-Singapore Based (FAILED-arm reach)

June

5. Silkair (FAILED- 1-to-1 interview)

July

6. Singapore Airlines (FAILED-group interview)

7. Silkair (FAILED-group interview)

September

8. Singapore Airline (FAILED-group interview)

9. Jetstar International (FAILED-group interview)

10. Scoot ( 😀 )

 

September

September’s here. How fast.

In the last month, I attended my very last pole class at Pole Dance Academy Singapore before it’s closure and I was really sad because I love that studio to bits. It was cosy and those spotlights hitting on the brass pole had this dancing on the stage effect, which made it extra glamorous. Not to forget the lovely and bubbly teacher—Salmah, it’s been 8 weeks since my re-visit to pole-dancing again since I chipped my elbow. I’ve healed fast and gain my strength back with Salmah’s conditioning and her encouragements.

So, the next chapter of my pole journey was, should I continue with brass poles? Or perhaps head back to chrome pole which is what I am practicing with at home…

I thought of going to TheBrassBarre, I love their sexy and fun vibes and pole dancing genre but then again, brass poles, I know I would struggle finding good gripe especially when I’ve got sweaty palms. GOSH.

And eventually, I landed myself at Polelab. It’s a cosy studio on the 2nd floor in a shophouse, similar to Pole Dance Academy, although it’s only half the size… but still of the 9 poles, 2 poles were 40mm brass and the rest were the usual chrome. I was pretty much contented since I’m given the choice to choose whichever type of pole I felt like using that day. The classes were probably the cheapest amongst all the other pole studios in Singapore, at 8x 1.5hour classes for $180. But guess what, the deciding factor was actually the teacher!

She’s Leron, and she was my first ever pole teacher even though it was just for a day. Before I started my pole journey, I attended my very first pole trial and was introduced to pole dancing by Leron back then when she was still teaching at Acro Polates, yes the one that is owned by Suzie Ming. She was a good teacher although she always has this serious looking face, I love how she breaks down the steps and counts the steps for me slowly.

I don’t know how long I might stay with Polelab, as I do miss my teachers from Pole Dance Academy and I’m just waiting to see where Salmah might teach in the future so that I could join her class, meanwhile, I shall still with Polelab to keep my pole sparks alive.

Happy September guys! 😀

It’s sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew…

It mattered to me so much and because I was completely at a lost, I ended up resorting to google, typing… what to do when your friends leave you for her boyfriend.

Guess what, it was a really common topic and lots of suggestions and articles and even quotes came up. So, I clicked on the first few and read them.

The contents were almost the same between the different websites and then it just dawn onto me that I guess I was just looking for a reason to let go of a friendship which matters to me alot for I am someone who treasure friendship more than anything else but yet the other party is being just a crappy friend.

I’m just exhausted like really, I know how close we were when you didn’t change boyfriend and even though I expected you would spend more time with the new guy, I didn’t expect you to gone from a friend in love to become a crappy friend. I know I will never ever confront you over this but to let things fade into distant because I don’t want to appear to be that needy single when in reality I could barely even be able to meet and spend time like the past with you for just once in a month without your boyfriend intervention (while you spend time with him every single day, as though he is your only friend).

I hated how much I would spend my like late nights and staying up texting you and replying you because you had issues with him. I guess when there’s conflicts only then would you return and treat me as a friend. And because I truly took you as my best friend, I decided to sacrifice my time and focus to listen to your problems. Then again, all the last minute backing out on me and vanishing into thin air, I feel like a fool.

Was it worth it?

I don’t think so.

CAREFREE

I’ve been really stressed over money and my future job lately.

I know it’s impossible to be working in a gym with meagre pay,

Even though it makes me happy.

I’m the kind that chose over doing something I like than to do something I disliked,

Despite the attractive benefits.

Working in a gym, honestly had made me lead a healthier lifestyle.

But lately I went back drinking again.

I know I’m not an alcoholic,

But I love how alcohol makes me happy,

It makes me feel light and burden free.

My mind is like floating on clouds, empty and yet light-weight.

Although problems may return when the alcohol wears off the next day,

But I need this temporary relief from everything,

At least it gives me the break from being so stressful over my life.

Maybe I’m in the growing up crisis, wondering what life would brings me.

Not being able to further educate myself because of monetary issues.

Unable to get my dream  job because I’m lacking of lady luck.

I wish things will be better.

(I’m drinking as I’m typing this post, I have no shoulders to borrow, no listening ear available and hence, my blog is my only place where I could let things out.)

I’m thankful I did not settle for just anyone that comes…

I’m a firm believer in meeting the right someone. That someone who would be your call, your text away 24/7, that someone who would be your dark knight, your guardian angel, your soulmate, your listening ear, your adviser, your happy pill, and your best company. I know that someone is somewhere out there for me who will eventually sweep me off my feet and make me realize that my wait is worthwhile.

YES, that’s why I have never settle for just anyone that came along in my life. Call me picky, call me choosy, call me whatever you may like, but that’s me. 😀

For those whom have known me, listening to all my date stories, you’ll know that I’m a typical Taurus, who never opens up to anyone until I’ve seen his true colors. I’m always observing and being patient, trying not to fall hard to someone whom I do not know inside out. Simply because, when I fall, I fall hard, so hard that I ended up getting hurt but I do not regret a single one, for they each taught me something new and what I’m looking for…

• He told me I was too good to be true.. and so I did to become an even better person to make to be a “too good to be true” girl.
• He told me I was nice but treated me like a possession without respect… and I finally learnt to be BAD by leaving him.
• He told me I was too fit for his liking for he liked chubby/curvy girls… and I became even more motivated to POLE HARDER.

These are probably just some of the more significant dates that has probably molded me to become the girl I am today. Till as I’m typing this post, I know that I made the right choice for myself for not settling for anything less because I don’t need anyone to dictate my life, my choices nor my goals.

The inability to not accept someone’s else flaws may not be a bad point, to state that I am someone who is a perfectionist over the qualities that I want in a partner, resulting in rejecting a potentially ideal person. Ultimately, I know that when when I fall in love, accepting his shortcomings SHOULD NOT feel like settling such as accepting his reasons for his negative qualities or  giving up on my current lifestyle to accommodate to his. In fact his vices should be able to be accepted by me as a virtue, else the person would definitely be another strike-off.

I know holding out may seem like a major gamble because settling is the safest bet to give myself the security that I needed and to be showered with attention for I’m someone who might be a little afraid of being alone (or perhaps should it be the emptiness…hmm). Age is also probably one of the major concern as getting older year after another,  with everyone around suddenly becomes attached, I might panic and even start doubting myself on my attractiveness. Still, there won’t be any likelihood of me prioritizing being in a relationship over the quality of that potential someone. If I were to be dating someone who makes me uneasy about going long-term with him, then I’ll rather choose to let go of this mediocre someone, and take a riskier bet— TO GO SINGLE.

Being single has its own benefits like being able to allocate all my time to do the things I wanted without having to consider someone else in my decisions. I could be able to spend some time in the supermarket to shop for some groceries or even a day at the gym or leaving my phone untouched to watch a movie on Putlocker. I could also spend my money where I deemed appropriate like spending on pole classes, saving it for my budget travels and splurge on myself during special occasions. I even managed to put some ticks to my goals and checklists such as travelling alone to another country, working at a bar in Bikini, and most importantly, learning to be independent, strong and figured out that I was actually pretty good at planning and being road savvy. It allowed me to foster a even stronger bond with my bffs like Siru and creating new friendships with others because I always believed that friendship is worth investing my time in for they are the ones who would be willing to lend their listening ears when your families are not around.

Yes, I may not have fallen in love or settle with someone, but I fell in love with life. I fell in love with my new hobbies, learning to relive my  life again once more, learning to stand up after my grandma’s departure and even realizing my new quirks. I had the chance to figure out things out of my comfort zone and appreciating them on my own. I’m glad for this solitude as I wouldn’t be able to unlock my new achievements and goals if I had settled for just anyone that came along. 😀

 

Never settle for anything less than what you deserve, it’s not pride but self respect.

I’m a cabin crew wannabe

Ever since I was in secondary school, and watched this movie called “View From The Top” which talked about this girl called Donna who came from a small town  where no one believes that she could do something big, but she believed that she was meant to be up in the skies and she took actions and made her dreams came true, by flying for the most prestigious airline, with her quote “Don’t let anything get into your destiny.”

I’ve became really motivated ever since and found my life goal, to become a cabin crew. That plot totally depicts my background and similarly, I’ve always enjoyed travelling and serving people, and someday I do wished that I could become the “waitress in the air”. I know it’s not a really cool job to be, but the perks of travelling is more than what I can ask for.

However, one of the worst thing that could happen is that, my height happens to be on the sitting on the borders (I’m 160cm tall) as the cabin crew minimum height requirement is 158cm or 160cm for non-asian airlines OR most main carriers, they have this arm reach test of 208-212cm which they will do a marking with a sticker, and you have to touch, COMPLETELY TOUCH the marking before they pass you. Saddest thing, I’ve got short arms, even though I may be on tip toes, I simply barely touch the mark or sometimes can’t and the judges would not pass me no matter how hard I try. GEEZSH~

So, in the month of MAY, I’ve tried TR walk-in interview at Pan Pacific on a saturday morning, and I was extremely nervous that day and screwed up my interview during the second round-group interview after passing the written test. Honestly, budget airlines is my only hope because they do not have arm reach test unlike all the main carriers like SQ or CX.

On the next saturday after TR walk-in interview, I went for the SQ walk-in interview and I managed to pass the group interview this time round but I failed the ARM REACH TEST even though my height passed!!! I guess either the mark was too high or simply I had short arms! FML!!! I was super depressed and disappointed after that and for the whole day I felt like my dreams collapsed on me and the truth was simply too harsh to be accepted. Like I spend so much effort from earning lots of money to get braces and get my teeth fixed, spend lots of money again to get my eczema treated, and even studied my hospitality and tourism diploma just for the sake of boosting my chances of becoming a cabin crew. AND all I have done, was in vain… 😦

And surprisingly on two days later after the SQ interview, I received an invitation email from Scoot for interview! GEESH, I was thrilled and Scoot’s interview was probably one of airlines that I managed to passed the most rounds from the initial online application, to invitation to complete the popular 5 online quizzes that test on your mathematical skills, logical thinking, critical thinking, personality and your knowledge on cabin crew job scope and the online webcam recording interview to finally making it to the actual interview, passing through the extremely difficult test in 15mins, the height measurement and skin check (I passed it amazingly with my birthmark!) and then to the group interview, which I failed because I was sick that day and had a really bad cough, I couldn’t and wasn’t able to focus or participate. Disappointed, I should have take care of my health or maybe I wasn’t fated. The moment where you get send home from the airline after failing the round of interview, it’s really really depressing like you did so much to finally make it through to that particular stage and then they tell you I’m sorry, it’s simply too harsh.

So after Scoot’s interview, I took a two weeks break and surprisingly I received CX interview invitation to their office, which was at Changi Airport, super duper far!!! But the plus point is that there wasn’t any queue at all nor having to wait a long time for passing a certain round. CX interview was just super direct, like a normal job interview, instant application, one-to-one and the height and arm reach test which I failed because my left arm was too short to touch the mark. WHAT IS THISSS!?

Anyway, enough of procrastinating, I’m trying not think so much of all the failures that I’ve been through. 4 failed airlines interviews in just a month, it’s really too much for me to handle especially when I had to sacrifice my job to attend the interviews. Is this sacrifice really worth it? I don’t know, especially with that interest piling up on my loan, I don’t know if I’m making the right choice. Dreams and money, I chose my dreams, and I really hope that things will turn out right. From a wannabe to a try-hard, I don’t know when will I ever make it and be flying in the skies someday, or maybe never in my life.

OH WELLS … 

But on the bright side, I’m still going to try again and again for any available opportunities until my savings starts running out, then I’ll really give up on my cabin crew dream… NAHHH, I hope this won’t happen at all! Stay positive and like what Donna said, “Dont’ let anything get in the way of your destiny.” Work harder and dream big! 加油！:D

Another May 18th

Happy Birthday to me. YEAH, AWESOME, FANTASTIC.

Meh. It doesn’t have this celebratory atmosphere once you pass the mark of 21st, birthday would then be like just another ordinary day where you wake up brush your teeth and start your daily activities.

It’s a wednesday this year and initially it was planned to have some awesome drinking time at night but somehow I wasn’t in the mood to do so again. I promised grandma to visit her tomb every of my birthday and so I did.

I woke up early and took a bus to the temple, it started pouring pretty heavily, seems like a gloomy start of the day. Once I reach her tomb, I simply started crying real badly. Although there wasn’t anyone in the columbarium but me, it doesn’t matter. My sobbing sounds filled up the empty silence of the area. Oh wells. 😦

On my way home, I felt really depressed and emotional because grandma’s death anniversary happens to be 5 days ahead of my birthday…there’s just this long moment of silence. Until Siru texted me to ask me out for dinner. They decided to go for Kbbq at SOTA and insisted that I had to go along although I wasn’t willing to.

It took me really long to reach there because I was not willing to step out of the house and kept procrastinating. BUT ultimately, I still made my way there and had delicious Kbbq that made me smell horrible afterwards.

(Took this photo off the facebook of I’m Kim Kbbq and their food is pretty good I have to admit especially when it’s free-flow!)

Siru also surprised me with a tiny mango cake, I was indeed truly surprised because she has never did such an act for the whole entire of your friendship history! I was really really really touched!

Yeah to me for growing older!

Ps, I know I look like I just woke up from bed, didn’t bother dolling up myself because I was truly sad.

Guess what they got me? A WATCH! I’ve been wanting a slim watch for ages and finally I got my hands to YEAHHH and THANKS ALOT girls!!! I know it cost a bomb but I’m really really thankful. ❤

I’m really blessed to have you two in my life at this current stage and for the effort and time to select and buy me such a really pretty and pricey birthday gift which I would truly treasure it ALOT, and to spend time with me on my birthday, I’m at a loss for words totally. ALL I WANT TO SAY, is thankyou from the very bottom of my heart. ❤

(Really looking forward to the birthday trip to Phuket on the 29th!)

May Fitfam

The month of May was almost filled with activities, from part time work in the Safra gym in Yishun, to finally getting my lazy ass to gym for the first time myself, getting back to pole dancing at Pole Dance Academy and to even heading to a try-out at Tigerair and Singapore Airlines walk-in recruitment (I shall dedicate a post for it when I’m free to write the details.)

And I’m really thrilled at the results for my hard work and dedication to gymming, my back is finally getting back in shape and I’m loving how much my back muscles are starting to pop! Ok, my arms are still pretty flabby at this moment but chill ya, I’m slowly working it too. I’m still working hard on my abs though, they are probably the hardest to achieve because since the 3 months of camping at home my fats have been accumulating and forming a chunky ring of spare tire at my tummy and I’ve been working hard running on the treadmill to burn them off despite how much I hate running. Of course, I have to gain back my core strength because they are super duper weak and I can’t even go up to an elbow stand. I need to get the strength all back so I can do an invert and straddle again.

I’m really glad and satisfied with this really active (maybe not so much) lifestyle and I am really enjoying every moments of it although I should probably be worrying about my poly debt… well, I just hope that things will eventually turn out well for me. And of course, I used to be really worried about how I will end up looking muscular and that no guys will probably like me but nah, SCREW IT! Let them judge and I will keep on training to be stronger and fitter, to a better me and a stronger poler! CHEERS~ 😀

 

Rejections

I don’t know how guys are able to handle rejecting someone like a piece of cake because personally, I find myself struggling to find the courage to tell someone that I’m not into them. It’s like standing in between hurting them and not bearing to. I’m really helpless at this. Urgh.

I always find rejecting someone to be a really cruel act, it’s like dashing his/her dreams and hopes, but deep down I know that as much as the truth may hurts, it will not waste their time and hurt someone even more.

But finding the right words, the right time seems like a hard work. I even had to googled on articles and websites on how to reject a guy nicely. I don’t want to be mean disappearing and blocking someone without a trace, it’s just way to immature in handling things. I’m not that of a matured girl either but I just want to be nice, minimize the hurt to the minimum is probably the best I can do right?

Sometimes it may not be that he/she is not good enough for you, it’s just whether the person entered your life at the right timing, or probably if they are able to catch your attention. Being nice isn’t everything. Everyone, anyone can be nice, even a stranger whom you just brushed shoulders with, but it’s about putting in the effort to know more about someone, the enthusiasm;  trying ways to make someone day better, the effort.

Anyway, I kinda side track a little, what I really want to voice out is that I really wish people would be a little more brave, a little more courageous, a little more responsible. If they led someone on, be it intentionally or unintentionally, they have the responsibility to tell the other party that “i’m not into you.” (in probably the nicest way possible).

What is your love language?

Just on April Fool’s Day, I was having dinner with the girls and as we were chatting, Siru asked Yunteng and us, “What is your love language?” and she told Yunteng, I know yours is definitely physical touch since you love hugging your boyfriend and we all started giggling when she blushed. And then she started denying haha.

I was clueless about what does love language meant and asked Siru to explained and I even looked it up on the net as well. Actually, love language is probably something really interesting and incredibly true get to know yourself better and to let someone know what kind of person you are. There are 5 love languages:

• Words of Affirmation

Receiving words and encouraging compliments that will make you feel better, like “I really miss you”, “You’re the best girlfriend/boyfriend I ever had”, “You’re the prettiest or most handsome”…

• Quality Time

Spending time with him/her while giving the FULL  ATTENTION of yours, with no distraction from phone, messages and puts any important tasks at hand aside to keep him/her company.

• Physical Touch

Like appropriate touches, hugs, pats, brushing of hair and kisses. This one is pretty straightforward, hugs and kisses in fact brings people closer and foster a stronger bond… so some people might prioritize this as their way of expressing and affirming their love.

• Acts of Service

Actions speaks louder than words, when a promise to help is being completed in reality, this is when a person has actually proved his love through his actions. It can be simple actions really like helping her to get something, or do a task. Like when she’s is having sore throat, you actually buy “herbal cooling tea” or lozenges and delivers it to her.

• Receiving Gifts

A gift sometimes is a symbol of love, the kind of gift that is chosen expresses how thoughtful and detailed he/she is in observing her preferences, likes and needs. It could be a simple handmade card, a handwritten letter or something that caught her eyes at a retail some day when you two were shopping, receiving gifts would make her thrilled.

And so, I went to complete a quiz (http://www.5lovelanguages.com/) to actually find out which one was my love languages, although I always prized companionship as the most important factor which is somewhat falls as “Quality Time” and “Acts of Service”.

True enough my results were as followed:

Your Scores

11	Quality Time
10	Acts of Service
5	Receiving Gifts
3	Physical Touch
1	Words of Affirmation

The highest score being 12, I believe Quality Time is something I values the most and with one point away marks Acts of Service. I think it’s really true, I used to always believe that actions speak louder than words and that any promises are empty promises because only when they are fulfilled or done, it will be worth its value. Of course, putting time aside behind all the busy schedule and devoting some time to spend with me is probably something that I cherish the most as compared to words of encouragement or praises. Monetary gifts isn’t something I truly need as compared to a handwritten letter or a card made with lots of effort and time spend and hence probably explains a 5/12.

Well, I think I really like this because I get to know what is everyone love languages and how to affirm their love, this would most likely allow me to know how to handle each and everyone differently, especially like Siru, I never knew she was someone who values Receiving Gifts and Quality Time but now that I do, I probably mail her start mailing her letters and cards on random occasions. I guess finding out your love languages and others can somehow help to bring friendship or relationship closer…

So what is your love language? 😉

Felicia’s Birthday

This is probably the first time I’m celebrating Felicia’s birthday together although I have probably known her for nearly 2 years, where the last one she celebrated with her bf. This year, we celebrated on the 1st of April (2days before her actual) which happens to be April Fools Day and thank god the girls didn’t had any tricks and mischief up on their sleeves, else I will be really pissed.

The plan was to have just a simple dinner together and probably some drinks thereafter and because Felicia didn’t like sweet stuff, we didn’t get her a cake. So, I decided to get her a small bouquet of blue roses which I ordered and had to picked it up after physio that day, and traveled from like TTSH all the way to Seng Kang which was quite far a distance before heading to Holland V. (I know I’m un-employed, so I can’t really afford any huge bouquet, just something small to mark my sincerity as I knew she always mentioned how as a girl, she has never received flowers from any guys, so I shall be the first to do so then.) 🙂

(Blue is her favourite color…)

Anyway, before that night, I spend my entire evening and night making a card for her which I saw on one of the facebook videos that someone shared. It just happened to be so timely and I just learnt and picked it up in no time!

It’s not really very pretty in terms of the colors combo as I did it last minute and didn’t plan the colors but it’s a really good effort for my first attempt on such a card!

We had burgers at FatBoys since Felicia suggested it as it would suit everyone’s taste because Yunteng had kinda alot of food that she avoid so Fatboys would probably be a good option.

After dinner, we had some drinks at a random ktv pub in Holland V called King’s. The girls didn’t really stayed for long because Yunteng had to head home early to send her parents off and Siru had project to be done the next day, well as for me, I didn’t wanted to be the lightbulb for Felicia and Linc so I left with Siru.

(Sorry Felicia, for leaving early although I promised to drink together on your birthday!)

(Ps, I know the photo quality sucks because the lighting was terrible.)

Happy Birthday Felicia! ❤

Thanks for being a good friend, someone who is spontaneous, fun and full of laughter. 😀