青岛葡萄收成季节

七月正巧是葡萄收成的时候,我也碰巧被安排到了青岛两晚的航班还有一组非常好玩又友善的机组人员,简直太开心了。那次的路程,机长是个即将在十一月退休的机长,他就因如此,每到一个城市都一定会约每各机组人员一同出外,吃个饭或去郊游,然后拍很多照片留着做纪念。

抵达青岛的第二天,我们大清早就被带到了青岛的葡萄种植园,到处能看到各家种植的不同品种的葡萄。我们到处逛逛可天空便开始下起细细的雨因此就匆匆地找家葡萄园开始我们的葡萄自助大餐。我们选定的那家葡萄园并未有很多葡萄品种能让我们品尝,而只有两种-巨峰和玫瑰红。

后来因为雨越下越大,我们只好坐着等到雨停,而为了打发时间变开始和葡萄园的阿姨聊起天,越聊越起劲时,阿姨便说副机长人很帅,问他有女友吗,机长便搞笑地撒谎说,“我的儿子很帅是吧,多亏我的基因,他现在是单身嘞!你有美女介绍给他吗?”

你们猜阿姨结果说了什么?

阿姨说,“哈哈你们父子真不像,但小帅哥,我的确有美女介绍给你。她还二十来岁,刚毕业还是个公司的会计。她就是我的女儿,她现在还在家里今天周末不用上班,我打个电话叫她过来葡萄园,待会你们可以交个朋友。” 一说完阿姨便拿起了手机拨打电话。

我们都傻了。。。

结果阿姨的女儿真的来了!我们就这样互相的认识了。一个下午就这样过去了。。。

我的葡萄收成体验日就到此结束 🙂

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谢谢大家让我有个美好的回忆,好的机组是真的很难得的合在一起,回忆就只能珍惜。<3

She left me for good…

11th May 2014: It was Mother’s Day and everyone in the house had made a plan to visit Ah Ma at her ward in TTSH. They brought a cake out to celebrate with her.

I was happy to see her again, it’s been nearly a week since I visited her on Tuesday. I missed her so bad and hearing her voice was the only comfort to me because I know she will always support me in whatever do. Somewhat that day, something just didn’t feel right. She couldn’t speak properly and she told me she had problems breathing and her stomach ache really badly, there was nothing I could do, besides calling the nurse.

I spend some quality time with her and she barely spoke. I tried to talk to her, but somewhat her soul wasn’t there.

After which, I left home to get changed and meet my friend.

At night around 9pm, after the movie in Cineleisure, I received a text saying that grandma’s blood pressure dropped, and doctor says she might not make it pass tonight. The truth hits me, I was stunned, I nearly collapsed.

It was probably her time to go, cancer won and she lost.

After dinner, I headed straight to Novena, trying to rush to see her, and when I was her, she was cold, her hands were icy cold, legs were icy, cold, pale face and I could hear was her breathing, panting heavily to get the oxygen into the body while her organs were badly functioning due to cancerous cells affecting most her body organs function.

I called her, “Mama, I’m here. Please don’t leave me, please make it through, I really need you in my life.” in hokkien.

I know it’s probably effortless to call and talk to her because her soul was barely there, but still, everything was worth a try, to keep her by my side.

Minutes and hours started to ticked by, her breathing starts to weakened and soon, I could not hear her breathing anymore. Her eyes, did not moved at all, neither did her body. It was just her heart pumping weakly and the lungs taking in the oxygen that was given to her through the oxygen mask. I nearly wanted to break down and tear, but grandma told me not to cry over her death and I had no choice but to hold on to my saddness and tears and pretended to be cheerful till her last breath.

As her heartbeat weakens reaching 60, and then constantly decrease, I held on to her hands tightly by her bed side, and in my heart, I kept mumbling, “please don’t leave me, please don’t…” even though I know she’s in tremendous pain and she had already given up.

Till 0150, 12 May, her heart finally made the last pump and stopped for good. There was a constant straight line on the machine and even though I hoped for a miracle that there might be a sudden beat from the heart, it stopped. Yes, she’s gone.

She left me for good. Her eyes did not close at all, staring blankly into space. Like the elders always say, if someone dies without his/her eyes closed, she wasn’t able to let go of some things in her life or she wasn’t willing to die yet. I could feel that grandma couldn’t let go, she is always constantly worrying about me, worrying about me being bullied and ill-treat by my parents, bullied by my younger sister, worrying about whether I had friends, had money, basically everything about me.

I know she never fails to stop nagging at me, this actually started when she found out she had cancer and her days were probably soon. I know how much I hated her nags, but that was the only way she cared and worried about me. She taught me how to cook, cooking my first dish, frying my first egg, how to handwash my clothes, how to iron my clothes, how to sweep the floor, mop the floor, wash dishes, etc.

She was the one who always defended me from my mother’s scolding, canes (when I was much younger), the one who would stand up for me despite my mother’s making claimless accuses which she hopes to punish me and be able to vent out her anger that she accumulated from her workplace.

I’m all alone now, in this cold cold house. I really love her, the one whom fulfilled the duties and responsibilities of a mother, someone who taught me to walk, taught me to speak, fed me when I was hungry, carried my heavy bag when I started primary, showered me, Even though, she may be just my grandma, to me in my heart, she will always be my mother, my dearest mother.

I wish, I may, I wish, I might.

I wish, I may, I wish I might.

I wish for someone who could hear my voice,

Someone who could just listen to my thoughts and provide me with advice.

Someone who could just be the role of my parents or at least my mother,

to give me the motherly love that I need,

the protection that a mother give and the concern over my future.

I wish, I may, I wish I might.

I wish for a shooting star that could make this extraordinary wish come true.

It is not a very demanding wish.

It is neither something impossible.

For I am just sick of talking to myself,

Pretending to be the role of the mother, the father,

Pretending to answer my own questions,

Pretending to be happy, when I am not,

Pretending to know everything, when I don’t,

Pretending to be matured, when I am as childish as you could think.

I wish for someone to be proud of me, for who I am, 

Someone who wouldn’t call me stupid,

Someone who wouldn’t call me useless,

Someone who wouldn’t ignore my existence,

Someone who wouldn’t treat me like a tool,

Someone who WOULD just treat me like a daughter of her own.

And all I wish for is someone who really takes up the role as a mother, a REAL MOTHER.

My New Friend- Pam!

Her name is Pamelia, and she is my new friend. I got to know her from Emrys, in Taiwan where she was Emrys’s buddy.

I don’t remember how we became closer, perhaps it was internship that brought us closer together, and of course, food like Swee Choon and ramen.

It happen that we had the same off day on a Sunday and we decided to go to the beach to suntan together! Pam was late as usual and I had to wait for her and while sitting at the sky park, it was my first time seeing a star cruise!

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ImageBeautiful sky, but there was no sun. It was raining and we had to hid under the shelter.

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ImageI took some selfies because it was so boring since there was no sun and we finished our food.

ImageImageI am so vain. Hahaha

ImageThis is Pam! It was fun taking crazy photos with her! Haha 😀

ImageWe took tonnes of photo that day! PHOTO SPAM TIME XD

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My favourite photo!!!

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Suntan in progress!

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I had alot of fun time with Pam that day even though during the period where we were suntanning while lying on the sand, many indians were trying to disturb us by sneakily trying to take photos of us. We were so angry we had to stood up and stare at them.

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We had Fish n Co for dinner!

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After which, we ended the whole day with a nice glass of beer!

Lovely~~~

There’s always a vast difference between the reality and your fantasy.

It’s alright to dream once in a while but you have to get back on track eventually.

The Best of Times!

*Drumrolls*

Yes! I finally had a meetup with my bff! She’s Siru! The ultimate and officially bff that I have! She’s not the best bff that you would expect, but I guess we kind of are able to “click” and hit off well in a way despite the lack of closeness due to us pursuing different routes of education. Of course, she likes fashion stuffs which I really do and we do have some common topics on and off which I can’t share with you here. Hehehehe! 

ImageI got myself dressed in my new dress from MDScollections! I really love the back of the dress which I couldn’t show you without the help of someone taking photo for me! But still, it does features a nice white crochet top part and the bottom is chiffon and pastel pink! So pretty!

And, I wore my ankle strap nude flats that I bought from Vern’s in Malaysia! It’s a really light-coloured and pastel-looking day with this girly vibe! Feels good to be young! 😉

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So, we decided to settle our lunch at this small corner in AMK HUB called Hong Kong Sheng Kee Dessert. It’s a really small place but rather nice place to chill out and meet your friends!

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So here’s the promotion menu! And I ordered one wanton noodle soup and added on a Pomelo Sago and a supposedly carrot cake (Siru ordered wrongly and turns out to be a yam cake. YUCK! I really hate yam cake!)

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Here’s the wanton noodle soup! You could opt for dry or soup!

And here’s my verdict: It’s nothing really fanciful or amazing and neither do I feel “wow” about eating it. It’s really light and rather bland and nothing special, for the price of $6.50, I guess it wasn’t really worth it for that bowl of noodles. (THUMBS DOWN!)

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Here’s the add-on $1.50 of Pomelo Sago and yam cake!

My verdict?

Well, appearance-wise, it sure looks good but the taste was terrible. I’m not a really a yam cake person so not comments about it.

But the Pomelo Sago was BLEAH! It was really watery and bland with barely much mango smell and taste and the Pomelo? It was more of bitter than fragrance! And Sago? There was none! I guess you would say that I’m really very fickle with food, but dessert wise, like mango sago related stuffs, I’m extremely picky about it because my grandpa owns a dessert shop and he taught me what’s kind of mango sago or dessert is best and how to taste and identify them.

So, a bowl of Pomelo Sago at this shop? Save your money for a $1.50 Ice-cream sundae at Macs!

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So, after our meal we went to Bugis Street because I wanted to get a bag and some clothes and she accompanied me so!

Well, I ended up buying a laser cut clutch in black and not a handbag and I bought this black bandage skirt to pair with the coral top I got from MDScollections! Now, I have the perfect outfit!

I’m a happy girl! Best of all, the bandage skirt fits me well and was really versatile with any tops! Wahooo!!! I could buy more bandage skirt in future!

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Oh! Did I mentioned that I got my very first LBD?

Ok, little black dress  (LBD) is a must-have in every girl’s wardrobe because it’s so versatile! AND…I finally got ONEEE!

(Ok, I took these photos after reaching home and trying on those loots hoping they would fit because shopping at Bugis Street doesn’t allows you to try the clothes as they are sold cheap.)

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And ending off the day with a photo of Siru and me!!!

I didn’t put a single drop or specks of makeup on my face! BUT!!!

Because I feel like myself, make-up-less and most importantly comfortable with her, for she doesn’t looks down on me nor find me ugly with so many eczema scars and freckles on my face (due to SUNTAN! Grrr~) and that matter a lot to me! I can feel confident and at ease with her without worrying about looking ugly at all time!

I really love this bff so much! She’s so nice :))

Post-CNY Outing!

It’s the first day of the study week and I was supposed to be studying for the exam on friday but the group of us decided to give ourself a break first by going to Emrys’s house to “bainian” and to visit her cats followed by a long-awaited ramen meal at Marutama @ Clark Quay and then watching Ah Boys to Men 2!

The trip sounded so exciting right! Plus, everyone of us dressed our best for the day and it felt so cool! Especially entering the Marutama restaurant!

So, we all met at Woodlands MRT on a monday morning and many of them were late…and some were unable to make it which was kind of sad…

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Some of them are so scared of the cats and started dashing out of Emrys house!

And did you know that there’s 5 cats!!!

ImageHere’s the boy that frightened them! He’s such a sociable cat!

ImageHere’s my favourite one, Boyboy! She’s so scared of people that she hid behind the mattress!

ImageShe looks like a Garfield!

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She hides at a corner in the room!

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 It took a hard time for me to wait for BoyBoy to look into the camera!

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Her eyes are huge and look so cute!

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Then, we went to Marutama!

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Another photo!

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B & W!

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Wet tissues of Marutama! LOL!

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 Marutama menu!

ImageAjitsuke Tamago arrived in bowl!

Usually, they would place it in your ramen!

The ajisuke tamago is the best I have eaten so far among many of the ramen shops! I love the hint of japanese soya sauce in their egg yolk where the egg is 60% cooked! Not too runny nor fully cooked! LOVEEE IT!

ImageNext came the Gyoza! It’s steamed and I loved it!

The sauce is actually a mix of japanese soya sauce and chilli oil with a dash of garnishing!

ImageMy ramen arrived! It’s non-spicy because I couldn’t take spice! Haha!

So, the first thing I did was to take a sip of the chicken broth! Relatively nice! But the first sip felt like the soup base of chicken instant noodles, I only got hooked on to it after several sips!

The noodles were rather nice, not to thick nor thick, springy and chewy! LOVELOVE!

Overall, I think that Marutama ramen is worth a visit especially for a dining place for girls’ outing!

ImageThe eight of us took a photo by the friendly staff before we left!

The staff were very friendly and helpful especially in helping us take photos! Teehee!~

ImageAnd we went to watch Ah Boys to Men 2! The movie was awesome and I’ve been wanting to watch the movie for like sooo LONG!!!

ImageAnd this is my outfit of the day!

Did my own french braid, Self-tie back dress in green from MDScollections, MaryJane wedges in black from Code Red!

I enjoyed the outing so much!

Can’t wait for the next one!~